Be With You

I Love You Till I Die

In the present.......

Joungkook sitting next to Jimin's grave. And his heart is dying of jimin death, It's been four years, but the pain still kills him, just like it did at the first moment he knew about  Jimin's death.

The first moment He heard the fireman talking about a dead body.
His heart choked in pain.

He wished from his heart that this was all just a nightmare, and He'll wake up any minute to find Jimin a sleep in his lap, in his arms.

Jimin  was the pulse of life, His heartbeat, which stopped with his death.

He was everything to joungkook

And let's not talk about his wolf side.
He became weak with every moment he spent separately from his omega, and at the same time more wild, he want death to everybody Whether he contributed to Jimin's death or not.

Thus  joungkook and his wolf lost their passion to live, What's life for them without Jimin?

That's why jin suffered with joungkook during the first year , Because he's almost lost his younger brother more than once since Jimin died.

Joungkook has become aggressive, He took part in street fighting because he felt he deserved to die and pain.
He couldn't end his life so easily, coz he deserved pain first.
Jin found him covered in blood, bruises, and wounds filling his body, even  if he most of the time  won the fight .

And let's not mention his alcoholism.
So if it's not a night of fighting, then it's a club night. A night that doesn't end until he falls to the ground from a lot of drinking.

Jin was cried every night he sow his little brother in that Scene. From the beginning he was afraid of losing joungkook in his Revenge, but joungkook lost his revenge and his love.

He gave up revenge to win jimin, But revenge took its way and Caused him  the love of his life.

In the early period, he couldn't visit his grave. He used to go visit him, but stayed away ، Guilt was eat him from inside,.

And one day he found the courage to visit his grave, but shock when he sow Jimin's best friend,  j-hope and youngi are putting flowers and cry over the loss of their bestfriend.

And when they see him. J-hope attacked him, And slap him on the cheek twice. And accuse him of the death of his best friend.

And that made the situation more worse. He couldn't answer them nor defend himself, he just stood there silent, and his eyes watering.

Jimin send to them an email explaining everything to them, all the untold truth, that joungkook kept it away from them, and explained why he needed to end this life which Built on lies.

But the unexpected death, or should we said Murder, ended his life too.

It took Jin a whole year to get joungkook back to normal. Of course not old joungkook, but to make him stay away from Addiction and street fighting.

One day, Jin tries to find anything from jimin stuff or photos that maybe  could have an effect on joungkook, so he went to joungkook apartment, his and jimin apartment, He remembered something  it could help him, so he start searching in jimin stuff, and finally he found  jimin's  memoir.

Jimin was writing excerpts from his dreams and feelings in this memoir.  But Joungkook never knew it existed.

So jin Decided to give it to joungkook, Maybe it will be a reason to wake him up from the loss.

At that night Jin found joungkook drunk in a club, he took him home and gives him the memoir.

Joungkook's eyes were teary when he saw Jimin's handwriting.He looked shocked at Jin, "How?.. Where did you find it?" joungkook said while he hugging the memoir.

" between jimin clothes in yours bedroom" jin said tried to sit next to him on the floor.

"Why did you touch his stuff? What are you going to do with it?" joungkook said in harsh tone, he didn't like any one touching jimin stuff, The remaining items of jimin.

"I was looking for it, when i remembered that i sow jimin wrote on it one day" jin said and hugged his brother, "he asked me to keep it secret, but now i can't lose you too, so maybe his memoir will helps you to come back to me" jin said between his sobs.

Joungkook cried too, he was holding his tears for along time, that it was choking him from the inside.

That night joungkook couldn't sleep at all, jin made for him drink to wake him up from the effects of alcohol.
Joungkook sat in his office and started reading the memoir.

With every page he reads, his Eyes watering more and more, he couldn't contain his tears.

He spend tow days reading jimin memoir, he couldn't stopped.

Jimin's words dug into his heart and mind. He's stopped at one page contained Jimin's dreams.

A List he wrote it at age of 15, but what he surprised him, that jimin rewrite it again after he proposed to him the same list with some changes, but what make him broken more, that jimin wrote that he wants to make his dreams come true with joungkook by his side.

Because his dreams and his life mean nothing to him without joungkook being there beside him.

At that moment joungkook promised himself  and jimin to fulfill all Of Jimin's dreams.

And her we are joungkook make plan to implement all Jimin's wishes and dreams.

Joungkook always visits Jimin on a regular basis. Sometimes in the morning, sometimes in the afternoon.
What matters is that he visits him every day to talk to him and tell him about his dreams plan.

I miss you baby, i miss every thing about  you.
I wish it was only a nightmare my love
I wish i could kiss you and hug you

I love you, and i will love you till i die,  my heart is belong to you, only you.
And will beat only for you.