I am sitting and laughing as there is no tomorrow. The fear of future do not haunt me, everything is simple and easy. People are good and not pry-ish. they are all filled with joy where no seed of jealousy or faithlessness was ever sowed. Its a land full of miracles and wonders.
Sitting in the garden of positivity, I sowed a seed of hopelessness and disparity. As I was watering that plant in my garden a gruesome storm came and changed all the things. Now here we are living in the upside down world. Where everything happens exactly opposite of what we want or need. As now thinking negative is a compulsory thing. If you want to live you should be willing to die. So for living you have to say I don't want to live. The persistence of all the positive people are wiped out. Only those who can stay negative are living. Here Loving someone is to hate each other, fight with each other and do not trust each other.
I went quiet for days, I was alive somehow not that I was a negative person. But to know the fact that I m not a living man. Every part inside me is rotten and I stink. But still I am in my true form and stature. Lying in my garden alone. I thought that I m the only one alive as I cannot hear any people around me. The pressure of all the sand and clay is oppressing, turning me into dust. I am managing to get out but I cannot feel any of my bones.
I was not alive yet I am not dead too. So what am I, is this what happens when you are dead ? Is this the reason I am lying beneath the existence. So does it make me a positive person.
We all have two judgements for everything, Good or bad. Pretty or Ugly. Soft or hard. Positive or negative. But what we all forget is the middle shore. A fine line of existence between all of these judgements that separates them and make them apart as they seem. I was standing on the middle line. Where death or life doesn't matter. Where living is not a status and death is not a fear. Where up and down don't exist. I m somewhere between them. We say sky is important as well as the ground but there is something that distinguish both of them as separate identities. Which causes the horizon to emerge.
The poles of life are important but what most important is the part in between them. As a negative and positive particle cannot survive in an atom they need a neutral particle I am that particle. Where my existence is nullified because of my non polar nature.
I am not what I want to be but I m also not what I don't wanted to be. So I am satisfied with the transition of living and dying. I on my own has power of both. And I don't want either of it. As I have no poles.
