The Only String Attached

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BELA

It's been two days since I had my panic attack.The journal...di's journal just shook me to the core.

She sacrificed her love to me!

I thought I sacrificed my love to her,but she sacrificed her husband and baby to me.

She sacrificed herself for me.

She gave her family to me,her everything.I don't know why others dint tell me about that journal,but Mahir..Mahir will never let me read that,I'm sure.

I'm very lucky I read that journal!!

Guilty!

That's the common thing we three experienced here.

Bani di is guilty for coming between me and Mahir,Mahir is guilty for coming between me and my di.

And I'm guilty for  being the reason of her death...yes...she died for me.

She died for getting me back into Mahir's life.

I want to meet my dad today,I need to talk to him.

"Dad?"I called him,he and Andy uncle were discussing something.

"Bela? Come inside dear",Andy uncle said.

They were in Andy uncle's home and Mahira was with Yuvi and Mahir in office.

"Dad I need to talk to you about something",I said.

"What is it dear?"my dad asked making me sit beside him.

"Did you know about Bani di's pregnancy complications?"I asked.

"No dear,we dint have any idea about it",Andy uncle replied.

"Did you..did you people know about di's journal?"I asked.

"Bela..what are you...",I dint let him complete.

"Please dad,not today.Please tell me.I need you to answer few questions",I said and he nodded.

"I knew about her journal,but I dint knew what's in over there",my dad said.

"Di wrote it during her pregnancy period...she...she decided to die",I said.

"Bela...it was her decision...she wanted to have the baby,it's not your fault child",Andy uncle said.

"But I am one of the reason she is dead now",I yelled at them.

The guilt was eating me now,guilt of a child being without a mother,a husband without his wife.

I'm the sole reason for it!!

"Bela...I just want to tell you few things, will you listen",my dad said.

I nodded in agreement.

"Choosing the baby over herself was Bani's decision,her sole decision.She had a chance of getting you back through this decision.You did not kill her.She wanted her baby to see this world",my dad said and I was sobbing.

"We got the news of her pregnancy when I lost my wife,Mahir was devastated.He was back to normal after hearing this news from Bani",Andy uncle said.

"Mahir needed this child Bela.Even Bani needed this child at that time,it was their medicine.Bani cannot let her baby growing in some others presence when she had you.You were her most trusted person and she had full faith on you.Only you can love her child like a real mother.She left for everyone's happiness",my dad said.

"It was just her fate Bela,her life was written only till there.Her health was not supporting her and...and she had a natural death.But you have to move on Bela.She wanted you and Mahir to be happy along with her child",my dad said.