wanderlust (mashikyu)

five

TW: Panic Attack and Anxiety (also slight mentions of injuries/violence-dream)


A week had passed since the fight between Haruto and Jeongwoo. They had made up that morning and things where different between the two. It was like they had reached a deeper level and the way that both looked at each other now could make anyone feel like they were intruding. The day they had planned to go to the amusement park had also been the day that the two told the group about their relationship. Of course everyone was happy and proud of them but whatever had happened in that room that morning had changed the two and Mashiho and Junkyu where both curious but if the two were happy then they wouldn't press. The week had been mostly uneventful aside from that and it was now Sunday night. Planning to return back to actual training after the three week break all the boys were planning for an early night. The schedule was going to be long as they had been working on a big project prior to the break and were coming up to a check-in tomorrow. The boys had decided to order takeout and watch a movie before calling it a night.

Mashiho and Junkyu had cuddled up on the couch having finished eating pretty fast they were silently dreading the idea of sleeping alone tonight. They had been with each other all week using the excuse they didn't have enough time with each other the first two weeks of break so they had to make up for it. Neither wanted to put a name to what they are or what was going on but this week had been amazing. They spent the next hour wrapped in each others arms watching the movie with mild interest, focused more on each other. As the movie came to an end the boys cleaned up the living room before saying goodnight and heading off to get ready for bed. Mashiho was being dragged out the door by Jihoon with a simple "leave the poor koala alone you both need rest tonight." Junkyu was so caught up in Mashiho he failed to notice that the others were calling dibs on showers which put him going last. So as he waited on his bed for Haruto to return he checked his phone responding to some of his childhood friends before an unsaved number caught his attention. As he clicked on the number paragraphs of threats showed on his screen and he felt a chill run down his spin. He had been running so long in hopes that one day his reality wouldn't be tainted by his past but as he read through his heart sunk. Working through the stress of being an A class trainee to making it to debute had managed to distract Junkyu. It had been years and he hadn't let himself dwell too long on those people but as he read through the words the room began to feel smaller and his heart felt like it was beating out of his chest. He was terrified and nothing anyone said to him could really make him feel okay. As he reached the top of the text he felt numb. Barely acknowledging Haruto as he came back to the room letting him know the shower was ready. His body was on autopilot making his way to the shower and getting ready for bed. Having spent the past few years living in the dorm his past was flashing through his mind the long nights, the pain, and most of all the sacrifice. He couldn't imagine having to go back to a time like that especially with all he'd been blessed with. Feeling overwhelmed he was quick to lay down and close his eyes letting sleep consume his spiraling mind.

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Junkyu screamed as Mashiho's eyes slowly closed in front of him. The smaller boy was covered in bruises and cuts and Junkyu could do nothing as he was tied to the pole in that horrid room. He watched as the man dragged the other into the fridge and by that point he really began to freak out. Begging and begging he could not stand the idea of the small boy being put in that box....not the box.....no...he couldn't. Not Mashiho.

"YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE MESSED WITH ME BOY. I'LL KILL THEM ALL." The voice roared in his mind and Junkyu felt like he was suffocating.

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Haruto had to go pee and it was the only reason he was willing to get out of bed especially when his baby looked so cuddly and was his own personal heater. Now that the boys were no longer hiding their relationship this past week had been so reliving everything wasn't okay but they were getting there. The room was a bit cold so he quickly made his way to the bathroom and was back in under a minute he swore laughing to himself about how stupid he probably looked just now. His eyes had finally adjusted to the dark room and he naturally looked towards the bottom bunk making sure his hyung was okay. As he looked down at the sleeping boy he couldn't help but to pick up on his breathing which was becoming more like gasp of air. Slowing down he tried to remember if Kyu had ever had any nightmares and he couldn't recall a single thing so the gasping began to worry him and instead of climbing up the ladder he bent down to get a closer look. Junkyu's gasp was getting more intense and soon he was letting out whimpers. This was when Haruto decided maybe it was time to try and wake the older boy and began to gently shake his shoulders. "Kyu hyung... Hey kyu hyung..." Said boy was know shaking all over and it scared Ru. "JUNKYU" He raised his voice a bit hoping to wake the boy up but nothing was working. As if sensing his fear Jeongwoo had woken up from his deep sleep to the bed shaking and Ru talking in a frantic manner. At first he thought Kyu and him were having some heated argument about something stupid but as the Japanese boy dropped formalities calling out for their hyung Woo began to worry. Climbing down the ladder quickly he could hear Junkyu gasping for air as the whimpers began getting louder Jeongwoo felt scared. "I'm gonna get help" He was out the door before the other even processed he had woken up. As he raced down the hall he noticed the lights on in the living room and sure enough it was the two leaders. Probably a bit closer than normal but that was for a different time. They both glanced up at the commotion only to see a panicked Jeongwoo. "Hey! hey what's going on?" Hyunsuk was quick to ask as he had checked on everyone not long ago and they were all fast asleep "Junkyu hyung" At the name of his best friend Jihoon was up and making his way before hearing a single detail but it seemed the other boy was too. Neither of them had ever had a problem with the hyung line and the way woo looked told them that this was not going to be good. Making their way into the room the sight was heartbreaking and scary.  The two boys were quick to rush over and try and help but it soon became apparent the Junkyu was panicking. When Woo had left the room Junkyu had finally managed to wake up but the panic was coursing through his veins. Mashiho was the only thing on his mind there was no logical part of his brain present he needed to see the other. The boy was having a full blown panic attack and as soon as the younger realized he tried to calm the other down but it was of no use. It was like Junkyu had lost all ties to reality. The three boys spoke in soft voice but neither of the leaders approached Junkyu. Noticing the way he had balled himself into the corner and was shaking, he needed space. He looked awful and it was bring all the boys to tears as the watched the normally happy boy unable to met their eyes or properly breathe. By this point all the could hope is that Mashiho would be able to calm him down.