wanderlust (mashikyu)

four

Two hours earlier...

Haruto and Jeongwoo had been laying on the bed messing around. Woo was in the middle of trying to convince Haruto to skip practice tomorrow and say they are sick so that they can go to the mall. While Haruto would love to do that he also knew how much trouble they could get in and was still being reminded of the last time he fell for Jeongwoo's charm and ended up getting scolded for an hour and ear full from his parent's. So it's easy to say that he won't be doing anything stupid for a few more months. As Haruto was about to kiss the boy to shut him up the other's phone began to ring. Haruto happened to be closer so he picked it up and saw it was his parents phoning him.  He quickly clicked the answer button to greet them but the phone was snatched from him and before he could react the smaller boy was off the bed and out of the door without a second glance. Haruto didn't know how to feel recently woo had been more secretive especially about his parents. While Haruto knew that the other loved him and wasn't doing anything behind his back it didn't stop the dull ache he felt in his heart as the door shut. He always had insecurities about feeling left out in general but woo was always super good about communication. He had always made him feel comfortable and had even helped him talk to the other members and get him more comfortable. With the survival program he mainly stayed with his fellow Japanese members so after everything had been decided and they were set to move into the dorms Haruto had been ridden with anxiety as he wasn't as close to them. After a few private conversations between the leaders and Jeongwoo, things began to work and soon Jeongwoo was fighting for alone time with his boyfriend. As Haruto was left alone to reflect on how the past year had gone by, he felt himself getting upset and unintentionally began to get worked up. For Haruto once the negative thought's enter his head it was a spiral that wouldn't stop. Twenty minutes had passed by before Jeongwoo came back and at that point Haruto decided it was time to confront him hoping to understand why he had been so distant lately. 

Jeongwoo wasn't prepared for the storm he was walking into but as he shut the door behind himself he could feel the tension hit him square in the face. "Baby?" he gulped nervously while working up the courage to look at the Japanese boy. "Why? Why did you snatch it like that...I haven't talked to your parents in a while.. a-and I was only going to greet them not mess around like the other boys.." Haruto trailed off getting more frustrated at the situation as it replayed in his mind. Stuck in his head he failed to notice the flinch that Jeongwoo failed to repress as he mentioned his parent's. He also didn't see the dried tears on his boyfriends face as he could barely look up himself trying to prevent the tears from his own eye's falling. Jeongwoo felt hopeless he knew that if he told Haurto the real reason why he had left the room the conversation would end before it could escalate into anything worse but a small part of his mind told him to lie. Maybe  it was a coping mechanism he had developed over  years of dealing with his parents or maybe it was the silly idea that he could handle it alone. He stayed silent. "I-i can't do this... I don't know...please please baby talk to me..."Haruto felt hopeless in that moment and as he reached out for the other he felt a wall block his path. Jeongwoo wouldn't even glance at the boy his world froze the minute Haruto said he couldn't do this the boy felt like he was free falling with no nothing to catch him. "get out." Woo's voice was so soft but the words felt like a knife to Haruto's chest. "huh...baby what do you mean?" Haruto didn't want to leave they had never fought like this and the way his boyfriend was curled in on himself looking so small made his chest ache. He wanted nothing more than to hold him and reassure him that whatever was going on he's here but instead he was being pushed away. Not knowing how to handle things Haurto didn't want to be push the younger anymore and quietly got up making his way to the door trying not to turn back. The frustration had long been forgotten and now Haurto wanted to take back every word just to have the younger in his arms.  With every step he took he felt like an idiot for listening to his mind and acting rash when his boyfriend was clearly upset.