I'm not a game | Kenma Kozume x Reader

Intertwined hands

Changing back into your uniform, you make your way towards the school gates. Your hands fumble to fix your hair into a ponytail. "Y/N!" An unfamiliar loud voice calls out to you. You raise an eyebrow, slowly turning around. You're surprised when you see Kozume run up to you.

Was that voice Kozume's?

Kozume runs over to your side while you finish tying your hair into a ponytail with your hair tie. "Did you just yell for me Kenma?"

"Yeah." Kozume takes a deep breath. "Let's go home together." You look at Kozume blankly. Something about him is different right now. It's unusual for him to shout and go out of his way. "Should we wait for Tetsurō?" Your eyes glance past Kozume but Kozume pulls your attention back to him. His hand grabs onto your wrist. "Ah..." You part your lips slightly, blinking slowly. Kozume doesn't say anything when he walks ahead, pulling you along. You lower your eyes to Kozume's hand, he holds onto your wrist tightly. Flicking your eyes up, you stare at Kozume's back.

Did someone agitate him? Was it Kuroo?

Your footsteps slow into a halt. "Kenma, did someone make you angry?" Your soft tone reaches Kozume's ears, making him freeze. He slowly turns around to look at you. The sunset glow splatters your surroundings and you see a shadow cast over Kozume. You feel him loosen his grip on your wrist. His golden eyes slowly meet yours and a gentle breeze blows through your bangs. Kozume bites his lower lip, his brows knitting together. You notice the troubled expression he's making. Carefully, you take a step forward. "Should I go yell at them?"

Kozume shakes his head in silence. You patiently wait for Kozume to speak up. His hand squeezes against your wrist again and you bite your tongue. "Y-You're hurting me Kenma." You squeak out. "Sorry." Kozume speaks lowly. "I can't seem to find the right words to tell you right now." Kozume lowers his head, his hair falling over his face. You sense a sadness and irritable tone in his voice. You ponder on what you should do. Kozume seemed to find his own way to comfort you when you were upset.

What could you do?

Y/L/N wiggles her wrist out of Kozume's hand and his eyes wavers slightly. For a split second Kozume feels lonely. You nervously intertwine your fingers with Kozume's, giving his hand a slight squeeze. Kozume raises his head up and looks at you. You stare back at him with blushing cheeks. "I'm right here when you want to talk Kenma." You form a small smile towards him. "Let's make our way to the train station." You're the one leading now with Kozume following behind you. His golden eyes stare down at your intertwine hands. He feels a sense of relief when he sees Y/N's hand in his. Kozume didn't understand these emotions and it terrified him. It's not the same emotion he gets when a new game is released or when he completes an anime series.

Those feelings are euphoric while this current emotion he's feeling is anxious. Kozume worries that if he doesn't keep an eye on Y/N, something will happen. Something he wouldn't be able to control or predict. No amount of video games will help Kozume understand the emotions he's having right now. The two of you enter Tokyo station. You notice the light amount of crowds when you walk inside. "Looks like the rush is gone for now." You say to Kozume. Kozume nods, the two of you standing closely to one another. You didn't have to wait long for your train to arrive. The bustling noise of the train echoes from the tunnel.

When the train comes to a halt, the two of you step inside. You lead Kozume over to back of the train and the two of you sit down. Now that you're sitting, you feel your exhaustion wash over you. A yawn creeps out of your lips and you cover your mouth with your free hand. Kozume eyes you from the corner of his eye. You blink away the sleepy tears and relax in your seat. Kozume busies his other hand with his phone. The train starts to move again, making the two of you sway slightly. With the silence of the train and your exhaustion, you easily feel your eyelids grow heavy. You try to stay awake but the warmth of Kozume next to you pulls you into slumber. You close your eyes and start to doze off.

Kozume stiffens when he feels Y/N's head rest on his shoulder. His eyes glance over to his shoulder and he sees Y/N's sleeping face. This is the third time she's fallen asleep in public. Kozume feels his chest tighten and his heart race rapidly. Pulling his eyes away from Y/N's sleeping face, he lowers them to his phone.

Kozume sighs, closing out of the chat with Kuroo. He decides to pull up a web browser. The internet would probably have a better answer for him. The results pop up with a heart attack or anxiety attack. Kozume mentally groans at the results. He slides his phone back into his pocket. Y/N's grip on Kozume loosens when she falls into a deeper slumber. Kozume lowers his eyes to their intertwined hands and tightens his grip on her. Pressing his lips together, he looks over to Y/N. The faint smell of strawberries and sweat fills his nostrils. Kozume starts to grows very aware of how close the two are. Nervously, Kenma extends his trembling hand towards Y/N's face. He carefully tucks her bangs behind her ear. Kozume's body tenses when his finger grazes against her ear.

There's no way the cause of his racing heart rate and tight chest is from a heart or anxiety attack.