It's complicated

17:

"Xavier wait. Please just let me explain."

He didn't care if I was yelling at him or not because he got in his car and he left.

I felt like a cow for playin that stupid game. But that's all it was, a game.

Why did I care if he stormed off its not like he was my boyfriend. He was nothing more than a friend.

Quinton came up to me and asked me if I was okay. I couldn't wrap my brain around what just happened. He just pushed me away like nothing's happened between us for the past few weeks.

"Hey you okay. You look like you've seen a ghost."

"It's nothing can we just go inside?"

We went in and had some more drinks. At this point I didn't care how much I drank I just knew that kiss between me and Quinton ruined my plan.

It ruined it all and now he was never gonna forgive me again. We played one more game of truth or dare.

I got another glass of alcohol, was my last one though. People started leaving. Once my glass was empty I started to clean. Quinton offered to stay over but I told him I needed time on my own.

I needed to spent time with myself and clear my thoughts. Once the cleaning was done I went to shower and got into bed.

The rest of the weekend was pretty quiet. He never came around once. Not to say hello nothing, he hasn't even returned my texts or calls.

I don't get why he was so angry. We weren't together. It was Monday morning and I wasn't even in the mood to get out of bed or go to school.

But I got up and left anyway. I had to be a responsible adult and face my problems even if it meant facing the one person that can't stand me.

We were half way through the day and yet I haven't seen him once. Either he's not at school or he's just good at avoiding people.  We sat in drama class, he showed up but very late though.

It felt strange not having him bother me or even be around me. He sat at the back of the class with some of his boys. I wanted to go up and talk to him but I didn't. 

I could feel someone's eyes on me  and when I turned around I saw him staring at me. Our eyes met but he soon turned to talk to someone. At least he still looked my way.

So he couldn't of been that angry at me. Ma'am told us that we should visit the notice board to see who got the lead roles. Those who got it would have to spend after school hour.

She spent the whole lesson explaining our roles and responsibilities and what would be expected of us.

As soon as class ended I ran up to catch up to him. I had to try and talk to him. I saw him stopping to talk to some guys. I ran and he started walking as soon as I reached him again.

I wanted until he stopped at the notice board. As soon as I reached the board I saw we got the leads. He started walking again but I stopped him.

"Xavier wait."

"What do you want?"

"Can I just explain what happened."

"Leave me alone."

"It's not what it looked like."

"Oh isn't it."

"Please just let me explain."

"You know the way I remember it. Was you kissing that guy Quinton I believe his name is."

"I was dared to do that. I didn't just do it because I wanted to. I would never do anything to hurt you and besides were not even together so what does it matter?"

"It matter because I like you Claire.  It matter because I want you to be mine. It matter because you mean the world to me. It matter because I only spend time with you!"

"I'm sorry Xavier, is that what you want me to say? Is that good enough for you?"

"Sorry doesn't cut it anymore Claire. Do me a favour leave me alone and don't even talk to me."

"You know when I wanted you to leave me alone you refused to but now that I made one little mistake you suddenly don't want me around anymore."

"A little mistake. You kissed someone else for crying out loud!"

"I'm sorry I must of missed the part where you cared! You never used to care what I do, you didn't even know I existed!"

"That's not true. Me not giving any attention to you doesn't mean I never noticed you!"

"Then how else would you define it?"

"You know what I'm not doing this right now!"

"Yeah run away from your problems it always fixes them!"

"Fuck you Claire."

"Oh wouldn't you like that. You know I was just trying to say sorry and make up for my mistakes but you had to turn around and be an asshole like usual."

"I'm the asshole?"

"Yes you are. I'm so sorry I ever tried to apologise to you. You're so selfish you know that? You only think of yourself no wonder you choice Veronica above me."

"What do you mean?"

"Come on Xavier everyone knew."

"Knew what?"

"That I liked you, come on don't tell me you never knew."

"I didn't Claire."

I turned around and stormed off. I was so furious at him. So I was gonna respect his wishes and leave him alone. I shouldn't of talked to him in the first place.

He pulled me by my wrist into a storage room and shut the door. He then stepped closer to me and I backed up until I hit the wall.

I took a sharp in take of air when my back hit the wall. He closed the gap between us. He put his hands in my hair, pulled my neck back and kissed it.

He picked me up and my legs wrapped around his waist. He continued kissing me. If he was angry at me why'd he kiss me?

The kiss turned rougher. So rough that he bit my bottom lip and drew so blood. He turned around and walked away but before leaving he turned to face me.

"And do me a favour leave me alone. This never happened you hear me."

He just left me standing there. I was speechless. What just happened?