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BOOK TWO: TOXIC CITY

My hands are shaking as I pen down these words,
Or perhaps my heart failing with signs of raindrops,
I didn't really know who you were until you left,
And now I feel somebody just committed theft.

Leave, Go, Disappear like a butterfly after each fortnight,
Maybe she held on to you like it was her birthright,
And now you're fading away just like the night,
She has to learn to go that's her plight.

Every other came, saw and had to go,
None could compare to you, you were like gold,
You remained like an oilmark even she didn't know,
Now you have to go just like the river flow.

She will be like this only for a few,
Alone, vulnerable and maybe blue,
This is what it really feels like to lose your soul,
When someone precious takes away your soup bowl.

You were supposed to be my guardian angel,
You were supposed to be my friend,
I thought of you every now and then,
I never wanted us to end.

In your hand my pride was committed,
Yet you left her worn out and dejected,
Sent her off like a chicken without head,
And you think you won't lie on the same bed.

I want to let go and never look back,
To make you feel the pains and know how sad,
To prevent you from getting into the ark,
Or make you suffer very hard.

But this emotion won't let me be,
And the times we've shared won't let me see,
All your wrong doings and faults,
Trust me love for you He fought.

You're still here in my crazy mind,
I still want to be in your filthy hand,
Even though you hurt me time and again,
Why I still I love you I can't explain.

One moment I was the centre of your world,
The next, I just leave you bored,
That I still love you I can't deny,
Even when I know we can't be for life.

You see another and quickly let me go,
Yet to me you're like gold,
Don't ever commit and not stay,
So all these drama will be kept at bay.

It hurts so bad that you're having your life,
And between us there can't be strife,
Its way too hard now I think you love another,
I'd have to leave from here and go way yonder.

You've already let go, why can't I learn?
Cos earnestly for you I still yearn,
What have I become, what have I turned into?
That even you sit in my face and boo.

I want to slap you, punch you and cry,
To hold onto you, I don't want no reason why,
Its just amazing you don't know how much I hurt,
Because of you my head is filled with thoughts.

Yet I presented to you another me,
And now you prefer this cloned me,
While I sit here still hurting,
You're there with me smiling and hugging.

I want to hate you and go far away,
For my sanity and heart's sake,
But I still care how you would feel,
If you will give a damn or just let me be.