I'm yours

Part 21

There was only a month until the graduation and the commotion in the school was too obvious. Everyone was either nervous or excited about the end of the high school. Beth didn’t actually care. Once she ends the whole school thing, she will still continue to work and almost nothing will change. But what she was curious about was Sebastian’s behavior; she started to observe him more than before. Even though she knew most of the stuff they learned in math class, Beth was paying attention to Sebastian’s teachings. They were easy to understand. And the jokes that few of the students, including Beth, got them were funny.
He started to act strange since Easter, almost as he was confused. At first, Beth thought he went through some shock, but when it continued the whole month, she figured it was something else. Sometimes during class she caught him staring at her with his bloody glare. At halls, too.  And then after a while Beth started to feel nervous, followed by disruption in her stomach, not because of digestive problems. ‘Maybe I’ve done something wrong.’ She started to wonder and tried to talk with him, but he always managed to escape her, even though 10 freaking feet were separating them. ‘Oh, well.’

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“Congratulations, graduates of 2014.” Ms. Walker, after her long speech, congratulated to all students that successfully finished their high school. “Oh, how original.” Beth commented on principal’s words. “Right.” Deb, who sat next to her, agreed on her words.

“Mom, dad, picture Beth and me together.” Deb told to her parents and cheerfully stood  next to Beth who just awkwardly stood there with a small smile on her face. “Come on, Beth, cheer up a little. This is the last time you’ll ever see this school.”, “I am cheered up.”, “Then widen that smile.” As Beth tried to look happy on the outside, she felt like something was missing on the inside. It wasn’t that everyone’s parents came to their child’s ceremony; Beth already got used to that. Something she couldn’t describe.

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Over the past month Beth realized she liked Sebastian, like, a lot. She wasn’t sure since when, but she liked him. Not as a friend, but as a man. No matter how hard she tried to deny it, she knew it was inescapable. So she decided to tell him.
Right after she confess, she’s going to start packaging and move to another building. It wouldn’t be possible to live next to a guy you have feeling for and then watch him how he finds a girl and starts a normal life with her, right in front of your nose. It just wouldn’t feel right.
If she’ll have any luck, she will find a new job. She can be so dramatic sometimes.

As she rang on the bell of Sebastian’s apartment, Beth was completely calm. Maybe a normal person would sweat their pants off, but only a dead man was more stationary than her. After a few seconds, she heard footsteps and then Sebastian opened the door. He seemed surprised, but greeted her anyway. “Yeah, I’m not going to hold you on this.” Beth stopped for a second to inhale some air and then said it. “I like you. Sexually.” When he still didn’t move, she quickly sighed and turned back to her place. ‘ Okay, wow, that was… pretty bold of you, but I still don’t know what you expect-’  Beth started to have a fight in her head when got interrupted by a hand on her wrist. “Wait.” A deep, male voice echoed through the hall. “No, it’s alright. Let me go, I still have some job to finish.” Beth proudly said without looking at him, but he still didn’t let her go. “Uhm-” she started, but got interrupted again. “I know.” He said and Beth was confused. “I know that and… I think I like you, too.” As dumbfounded she was, she turned back to him with her mouth slightly opened and her hand slowly rising up to her chest and pointing a finger at herself. Sebastian laughed and nodded. “Why?” was all that Beth could say. “Because you’re you. You don’t believe me?” he asked like he was hurt by her question and attitude. “Actually, not quite. This is not how it should go.”, “Eh? That makes absolutely no sense.”, “Oh, come on. You’re… wow, and I’m… not that wow.” Beth said while looking from his long feet to his confused face. Sebastian just shook his head and sighed, drawing Beth closer to him. “Why don’t we give it a try?” he slowly said, harmonizing his words with Beth’s steps. Beth on the other hand looked from his eyes to one point on the wall, not knowing what to say. “You’re for real?” when he nodded with a smile, she blinked a few times, almost forgetting how to breathe. “I don’t know what to say…” she murmured while taking her glasses off and rubbing the root of her nose with her index finger and thumb. “It’s either yes or no.” Beth’s hand was removed from her face by Sebastian’s while he neatly put her long, black hair from her cheeks and directed her face to his. After a long and final sigh, Beth finally said ‘yes’.