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rudys pov.

Chapter 7.

Rudys pov.

As i was sitting there crying i just though maybe carl was just trying ti thank me he probably dosent like me at all. He will just fall in love with shailee. Carl walked in and said "whats wrong rudy?". "You know what the fxck is wrong" i whispered under my breath. He came and sat by me. "It was just a dare". "Its not like we are dating or anything" he said. I looked at him and cried more. I got up and ran outside. I pushed shailee out of the way and patrick. I ran and ran until my heart couldnt beat anymore. I couldnt belive he would say that. Yeah i actually had feelings for him and he didnt have them for me. That just proves that he will date shailee now. "Silly silly girl he never really loved you" i heard shailee say behind me. I looked at her and just cried. I dont even know why i would be here. Why am i crying over a boy. Boys are stupid and they will break your heart piece by piece. Love comes slow then goes so fast. I guess i havent gotten to love yet. People used to make fun of me at school because i didnt have a boyfriend. I was always bullied. But im to stupid, to ugly, to fucking ugly. I dont need a boy to cheer me up. I need a life. What you thnk this is life. Its not im just living somewhere that i cant seem to see. Its invisible, like my tears and i cant wipe them away. I see carl run passed the corner to see me. He looks at me. "Im sorry carl, i hate that im stupid. I though you liked me cared about me, but i i, i understand, i get it now.