Title: Can't be
Written by: Miaawlovesyou
Zhorey and Luke's Story
"Good morning Luke!" Zhorey greeted me through messenger.
"Good morning Zho!" I greeted back. She's my friend here in RPW. Napakabait niya at napakacaring. Kahit malayo siya, pinapadama niya parin sa akin na importante ako para sa kanya.
"Kumain ka na? Kain ka na ah? Wag magpapagutom." A smile flashed on my face when i read her messages.
"Done na. Ikaw kain ka na rin." I answered. To be honest, I feel like I have feelings towards her but I'm still not sure. We both know each other's real names and accounts, but we chose to stay here in RPW.
Chat lang kami ng chat, that's what we are doing everyday though. Hindi siya nawawalan ng topic. Palagi syang may reserba pag tumahimik ang convo namin. That's why I can't stop myself from smiling.
"Ahm... Pwedeng tumawag?" she asked.
"Pwede naman." I answered. Sinagot ko naman ang tawag niya.
"Luke? Pwedeng magtanong?" she asked.
"You're asking Zho." natatawang sabi ko.
"Hehe, oo nga naman... Ahm... A-ano ba a-ako sayo?" she asked. I can feel the nervousness through her voice. Napaisip naman ako. Ano nga ba siya sakin? A sister? Best friend? Arghh! I'm not sure!
"You're like a sister to me. Why?" dahil sa pagkalito, iyan ang nasagot ko.
"Gusto ko lang malaman kung magkapareho ba tayo hehe." malungkot na sabi niya.
"Ahh? So magkapareho ba?" natatawa kunwaring tanong ko.
"Nope. Hindi lang kapatid ang turing ko sayo, Luke... I like you... And i think... I'm falling inlove with you." she confessed na naging dahilan ng pagkagulat ko. "Sorry, pero nahulog ako eh, and I thought you feel the same way... but I'm wrong, Sorry." she apologized as if it is a big sin.
"Shh... It's fine... Sorry Zho... But I'm not sure... Di pa ako sigurado sa nararamdaman ko. Alam kong meron, pero di pa ako sigurado. Zho... Makakahintay ka ba?" I sincerely asked.
"Di ko alam Luke... Pero sana kung pwede na, pwede pa." she said.
"What do you mean?" nagtatakang tanong ko.
"Nothing, out muna ako... Bye Luke!" she hang up. Nagtatakang tinignan ko ang phone. What does that mean? And why does my heart beats fast? Creepy.
Nagdaan ang dalawang araw at hindi parin online si Zhorey. Nag-aalala na ako. I tried to chat her in her real account but she's not replying. 'Zhorey? Where the hell are you? I freaking miss you!' I chatted. In two days i realized one thing... I fell in love with her. And i will tell her how much I love her.
Habang nagscroscroll, may lumabas na chathead kaya dali dali ko itong binuksan. It was her. Sayin' 'Slr naging busy lang.'
"How are you? Magpahinga ka kung pagod ka ah? Tapos, kain ka na rin." I chatted her.
"Sige." she replied. Bakit ang cold? Is she ok?
"Zhorey... I really miss you... Nung wala ka... I realized one thing... Zhorey... I love you." I confessed.
"Ahh? Wait lang out muna ako." she replied, ignoring what I've said.
Nagtagal ng isang linggo ang pagiging cold niya. Hindi ako sanay. Kung dati ay siya palagi ang nagbibigay ng topic, ngayon ay palaging siya ang nagtatapos. Napaisip nga ako... paano kung may bago na siya? Please lang wag naman. Kaya nagtanong nalang ako sa kanya.
"Zho? Are we ok?" I asked. Ang tagal bago niya ito i seen.
"Luke... I'm sorry but this is not Zhorey, I'm her older sister." she said.
"What? Zho di magandang prank yan HAHAHA." I replied.
"Luke... Wala na siya, she died a week ago. May heart failure siya luke... This past few months, pinapatibay niya lang ang sarili niya dahil sayo... cause she loves you. She want you to feel that you're important to her. Kaya kahit nahihirapan na siya, magcecellphone parin siya para lang makausap ka. Kahit pinapagalitan na siya ng doctor niya kase mas pinapadali niya yung buhay niya, wala siyang pake kase mahal ka niya luke! Fuck that love! Dahil sa pagmamahal niya sayo... Nawala siya..." sabi nito na nagpaiyak sa akin. 'No... It can't be... It can't be...'
"Last week, sinabi niya sa akin na ichat ka parin... Na ipafeel ko sayo na importante ka... Na kahit wala na siya... Nandyan si Zhorey para alagaan at mahalin ka. But fuck! Di ko na kaya luke... You deserve to know what really happened to her. Luke she died... loving you." she continued.
Nag-uunahang pumatak ang mga luha sa aking mga mata. Fuck! No it can't be... Zhorey... Bakit mo ko iniwan? Iyak lang ako ng iyak. Ang sakit... sobra... Zhorey, I love you... so much.
