Faking It

Part

Two weeks later Daniel called a meeting and as we took our place in the boarding room at the conference table I had a dreaded feeling that something was wrong. " Guys I have good news and bad news" he began and we looked at him . " The good news is that the show is selling fast but, the bad news is that Christina has to go . She has been offered the main role in the hit movie the Taste of Bad and she will be acting with the all time actor Stephen White" he finished and silence filled the room as I took in his words.

I had finally made it to the big time but, I wasn't ready to leave Jason not when everything was going so well. I looked at him and saw that he was trying his best to hide his anger and I said " wow I am so surprised. I am truly glad for the opportunity but, I can't do that right now . I mean I have to go to Hollywood and I was just beginning to think if you guys as my family away from home". Daniel smiled and said " we understand Christina but, this is a once in a lifetime opportunity so it is up to you to take it or leave it but, remember whatever you decide an opportunity like this will never come your way again  for a long time".I nodded and he dismissed us and James and I were left alone in the conference room. 

"So Hollywood huh?" Jason asked and I sigh and said" please Jason I don't know what to do. I want to stay here and be with you but, I want to go and achieve my dream . This is exactly what I have worked for and I think it would be unfair not to do this for myself. You have been so many times Jason and I want to experience it and make something of my life , build a name for myself like you did".
He ran his hand through his hair thinking hard " I love you Christina and I don't want to let you go but, you are right . It would also be unfair of me to keep you here and to stop you from achieving your dreams "he said and I asked " so does that mean that we are .... Well you.." he cut me off saying " yes we are over. It doesn't make sense that we continue this in a long distance relationship because it would never work and I don't want to do that. I hope that you will one day find a good man Christina someone truly worthy of your love".  

I felt tears rolled down my cheeks as he left the room and I knew that I should go after him but, I couldn't because he was right. I had to choose between the two most important things in my life and I had choosen my career and as I wiped the tears away I had a feeling that I had done the right thing but, if I did why does my heart feels as if it has been shattered into a million pieces?