Helpless

the one

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group chat included - daveed Emmy Renee jasmine Anthony Pippa lin

daveed - so who is getting married again?

Emmy - omg ok for the last time Renee is already married

Pippa - who's our dad

Renee - no one I'm a single independent women, who need no man

lin - is she married ?

Renee - yes and I have a kid

jasmine - well duh we are here

daveed - can I not be a child

Emmy - you know it isn't serious right? were just playing

daveed - what if you called me brother and I called you sister?

Emmy - daveed is killing me now

Pippa - she is still momma Ren no one can change that

Pippa - so jasmine

jasmine - yesssss?????

renne - so Anthony????

jasmine - what about him?

Pippa - do you love him??? like love love him???

jasmine - yes absolutely he is my other half

Emmy - enough to marry and have kids with him??

Pippa - we were trying to ease her into to it em

jasmine - we never really talked about as we have only been dating for less than a year but our 1 year anniversary is coming up but maybe 2 years and yes I love him a lot. kids are something I'm scared about but with him I feel safe.

Renee - is that a yes?

jasmine - uhm yes

lin - .

daveed - ^

Pippa - what?

in - nothing I wanna see this

daveed - where popcorn em

Emmy - I hid it

daveed - rude

jasmine - don't tell Anthony it's not even been a year I might scare him off and I love him. he my other half and I cant loose him. I just love him so much

Anthony - I love you to, peaches

daveed - whattttttttt?

jasmine - I'm guessing you read everything

Anthony - yeah

jasmine - I'm coming

lin - wait she can come with out asking, pipsssss

pips- get over it

Emmy - daveed don't add

daveed - rude

Emmy - love you too

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I threw my phone down and got in my car and drove to ants. I brought an overnight bag in case. I threw open the door which ant standing with his arms open. I threw my bag down and ran into his arms. I love ya I sang and he sang it back we laughed and watched a movie. "the lion king" I said nothing and ran to the sofa face first into a cushion. my back hurt so I Anthony massaged my back. I fell asleep in seconds. " I felt safe and I felt calm. but when I kept getting the same nightmare I didn't tell ant

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It was Friday morning and Anthony's phone kept swarming with texts I leaned over to put it on silent to see it was from Alex "block her ,baby" I look to see a fully awake ant. I blocked her and snuggled into ant I quickly got up and put our phones in the beside table "no distractions , just sleep". I relax my shoulders and crawl up into a ball. and sleep for another hour before woken up again to nala I decided to walk her and when I came back Anthony was up with his hands open.

"you're up early" "I couldn't go asleep" he hugged me and for no reason that he knew of at all tears swarmed my eyes and went down to my cheeks flowing onto Anthony's now drenched jumper. "come here baby, whats wrong" I didn't reply as I didn't know want to say I don't know why ,but that would make no sense. he grabbed my arms in excitement "you know what would make you feel better" he said pecking kisses on my neck "I got a gig tonight" I smiled and jumped up "do you want to come" "duhhhh".

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I got changed into a cute red flowy dress with flowers on. "I wrote another song " I smiled. "what is it called" I said heading for the car handle "come back home " he said with a smile and running to open the car door for me. I forced a smile back. he knew some thing is wrong. he knows me like he knows his own mind. he got to the gig and of course we hanged out back stage. when they called for him he grabbed my arm and pulled me towards him and on stage. and started singing come back home. he turned suddenly to me when he sang the verse.

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Nothing better than my mama rice and beans

All the sound, the people yellin' on the street

The lights when I land at JFK

The cold wind when it hits me in my face

I only feel the ground under my feet when

Jazzy standin' right there next to me and

Those the things that make me feel at home

And that's the only paradise I know, so

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when he said my name everyone screamed jazzy after. I blushed and he grabbed my waist and kissed my cheek while turning me towards the crowd. he finished his song smiing while singing the chorus for the last time.

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I had to leave to see

How good I have it, I have it

I had to go to know

How good I have it (How good I have it)

I have it (So I'm comin' home)

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I look out and see the same person in my nightmares I could say anything Anthony didn't know. I started to tense up and he felt it so he kissed my cheeks making me relax blinking to where I saw him for him not to be their it was just my mind playing tricks on me. I said to myself it just my mind I repeated to myself a couple times until my mind got hold of me again.right?