More than words.

Authors note: I wrote this hoping it would be read on the Awsten + Travis' slumber party Podcast, so if you guys could tweet it at Travis or something that'd be awesome and I'd appreciate it very much cause I don't have Twitter.

Also, I thought I should put a little message to Awsten and Travis just to say, you guys have my permission to read this and thank you if you do. love you guys<3

Ottos POV:

I was laying in my bunk on the tour bus when I heard somebody loudly stumbling in through the door. They must've been drunk or blind cause they bumped into every possible thing they could've, making a lot of unnecessary and unwanted noise. I opened my curtain to see Awsten standing between the row of bunks, arms on both sides, holding him up.

His head was hanging low, all I could see was the top of his green hair. "Awsten?" I asked. "Are you okay?" He lifted his head to look at me, squinting from the light. He blinked several times and widened Then squinted his eyes, trying to focus on me. By now I was pretty much convinced he was drunk off his ass, which was very strange cause Awsten normally doesn't drink.

He mumbled Something incoherently. "What?" I asked. "Get up." He said more clearly and very sternly. I did as he said and climbed out of my bunk, standing in from of him. "Do you need help?" I asked, half expecting him to puke or fall over. He mumbled something else but, again I couldn't understand. Before I knew It he was less than an inch away from my face and I could smell the alcohol on his breath. "I need you..." He managed to say.

"You need me?" I questioned, "You need my help?" I asked, assuming that's what he was trying to say. He grabbed me by my arms and shoved me against the bunks, pressing his body against mine. "Sure," He said, "let's go with that." I could feel his bulge pressing against my thigh and, I'm not gonna lie, he was making me hard. He started kissing me on the area just below my ear. "Awsten," I warned, worried that someone might walk in on us.

He seemed oblivious to the possibility as he continued kissing my neck. My whole body got tense as His hands slid down my arms to the waistband of my jeans. Its not that I'm opposed to the idea of doing this with Awsten, but it was very sudden and unexpected. I have real feelings for him and I never pictured our first time as a spontaneous, drunken, meaningless, hookup on the bus. It made me uncomfortable and the idea of somebody walking in just made it worse.

He must've felt how tense and uncomfortable I felt because he stopped kissing me and leaned his head back to see my face. I didn't look him in the eye because I felt like I was disappointing him. He obviously wanted to have sex with me and I was ruining the mood for him. "What's wrong?" He asked, his voice filled with what sounded like concern.

"Nothing..." I said, too embarrassed to tell him. "Otto, what's wrong? Tell me." He demanded, sternly but very lovingly all at once. "I-I don't want to do this right now..." I said, my voice trailing off. I couldn't see his face but I knew he'd be mad or upset. I tried to look anywhere other than his eyes, knowing I would only see his disappointment. I expected him to ignore what I said and just continue on, but he didn't.

I felt his body ease off mine his hands moved up to gently hold my face. He lifted my chin, forcing me to look up. into his eyes. Only I didn't see the disappointment I had expected to see, instead his eyes were filled with a loving concern. He lowered his face to my level, studying my features intently. His thumb gently rubbed across my cheek, "I'm sorry. We don't have to do this if you don't want to." His voice was deep And strong but he spoke softly. I could feel his hot breath on my face with the mixed smells of whatever alcohol he was drinking entering my nose.

"I don't." i said quietly, still a little embarrassed. Knowing that he actually cared enough to push his drunken desires aside for me only made my feelings for him stronger. I just hope he still wants to do this sober.

I was confused when the concern in his eyes shifted to a pained look. His hands fell from my face and he backed away from me. "Is it- is it me? Do you not like me?" He asked insecurely, something I rarely i saw with Awsten. He's always very confident. I shook my head and tried to explain, "No, I-" I mentally searched for the right words to comfort him and explain my feelings, but there were none. What I felt for Awsten was so much more than words could ever describe.

So I did the next best thing. I grabbed his face and pulled him closer, smashing our lips together. I kissed him passionately, standing on my tiptoes to reach him better. He must've got the hint that I felt the same way cause he immediately responded by taking control and slipping his tongue into my mouth and pushing me back against the bunk again, completely dominating me. He grabbed my hips and pressed himself against me once more.

Things were getting hotter by the second and I could feel him growing hard again so I broke the kiss before we could go any further. Awsten groaned at the loss of contact. I rested the back of my head against the bunk and he pressed his forehead against mine. We both panted, trying to catch our breath. Awsten closed his eyes and nodded slightly, "Okay, I think I get it now." He said breathlessly. I smiled at him and closed my eyes as well.

I felt him move his head from mine and nestle himself between my neck and shoulder. "Do you wanna-" he stopped abruptly and backed away from me, my eyes shot open just as he started to vomit on the floor of the bus. Miraculously none of it got on my socks. "-watch a movie?" He finished, wiping his mouth with the sleeve of his green shirt.

I made him leave to get changed while I cleaned up the mess. I took the bag of used wet wipes and chipotle napkins, along with anything else That got Awstens vomit on it, to a nearby dumpster. I went to the bathroom to wash my hands after I finished, when I got back I found Awsten passed out in my bunk, I must not have seen him when I came in. I let out a small sigh and smiled to myself. I climbed into the bunk with him and cuddled up to him. I wrapped my arms around him then  placed a kiss on his lips an laid my head on his chest, and fell asleep.

Awstens POV:

The first time I try to make a move on Otto he's not into it and then I just had to throw up on him. Way to go Awsten, you fucking dumbass. You just ruined any chance of a potential relationship with Otto. I tried not to think about It as I changed my clothes and rinsed my mouth out, but, of course, it's the only thing I can think about. I slowly exit the bathroom and peek around the corner to find Otto but I don't see him anywhere. I check his bunk but it's empty. He must've gone to take out the trash or something.

I try to climb into my bunk but end up slipping and fall on my ass. "This is why I don't fucking drink." I say out loud to no one in particular. I know I only drank because I wouldn't have had the courage to make a move on Otto if I had been sober, but damn this fucking sucks. I end up crawling into the bunk closest to me which happens to be ottos. I know he hates it when I get in his bunk and usually I do it on purpose just to annoy him but I'm too drunk to climb into mine right now.

I hear the door to the bus open and close, then the bathroom door, followed by the sink water being turned on. Not long after I hear Otto stop in front of the bunk. He sighs then climbs into the bunk with me, he wraps his arms around my torso and gives me a small kiss on my lips before he rests his head on my chest. A small smile creeps onto my lips as I realize my chances with Otto aren't completely shot after all.

The end...?