Not So Perfect | l.h

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Burying my head into my knees, i shuffled around on the cold dull kitchen floor of my mothers house, thinking about what will happen next. Words circle around my head, my mind screaming at me, telling me it was all my fault, that I am to blame. That it should of been me. It all feels like a sick joke that someone is playing on me and she will walk through the door any minute now, smiling and laughing, telling me i was stupid for believing she would ever leave me, if only that was the case.

My other snapped me out of my daydream, something i've been doing a lot lately, by handing me a bowl half full with mircowaved tomato soup and begging for me to eat something but it's no use. I vowed to not eat until i hear her voice again, see her beautiful smlie even if it's for one last time, i just need to say goodbye. She wouldn't hurt a soul, so why do she deserve this?

It felt as if i was just punched in the stomach, the pain was unbareable to live with but i must stay, i have to stay for Adi and Cecily, i haven't seen them in 3 days. The 3 days since it happened.

i placed my untouched bowl of cold soup on the large oak wood table behind me, i don't want food, i want her. I stand up from up from my place on my ground where i have pratically been living for 2 days, I stumble while making my way to the office that my father once had, grabbed my keys and dragged my slippered feet to the front door, i didn't tell anyone i was leaving. i haven't spoken in 3 days but right now i need to see our children, the only thing that is left of her. The only thing she left me behind.

i sluggishly walked towards my black Seat Leon, while getting into the drivers' seat, the strong scent of flowers and candy love heart sweet hit me, her scent, i always loved it but it is just a reminder of all the wonderful times we had together, i don't need that right now.
I arrived at the small 3 bedroom house the 4 of us lived in together. Now that number is 3. The door is painted blue, welcoming and inviting, the feeling that we want to everyone do feel as they entered, at this very moment at this what I needed. My knuckles made contact with the blue door and close my eyes about 40 seconds later two little arms made contact with my left leg. I opened my eyes and looked down to see Adi clinging on to me with dear life as if she was scared, then i felt I sense of
Hope, like every thing is going okay again.

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