Journey to the Old Era (Drisana's Mahabharat #1)

Chapter 12

After living in Kichakas for another month or so the pandavs started to travel again. On the third day of travelling, they camped at a open space in the forest area. They decided to roam the surrounding area in search of some fruits as they didn't have much to eat.

"Nakul and Sahdev, go into that direction. Arjun and I'll go into this side. Bheem stay here." Said Yudhisthir.

"No!" All looked at Drisana as she shouted. "I mean. I wanted to go too Jyesth."

"Why don't you come with me and Jyesth?"asked Arjun with a mischievous smile.

Drisana signed Sahdev for help. He understood and said,
"You go with Nakul. I've something else to do."

Drisana nodded immediately and started towards the direction Nakul was supposed to go. Nakul followed her.

Drisana wanted to talk to Nakul about them. After admitting her feelings to herself, she decided it was best to talk and let it out. She loved him and wanted to be with him. She figured she wasn't going back to kaliyug ever. And if there was a chance to go back, she didn't think she could do it. The only thing that was stopping her from the start was knowing that he was going to marry Draupadi. But Bheem was also supposed to marry Hidimba, right? If that didn't happen, there might be a chance that the pandavs marriage with Draupadi also wouldn't happen. But if it happened, then what she would do.

Well, she decided she didn't care anymore. 'The destiny will hand over whatever you choose.' That was Krishnas words and she had decided to choose Nakul. He was hers. Period. She wasn't going to let him go or share him with anyone.

"Nakul, I wanted to talk." Drisana asked him as he was searching some bushes.

"About what?" He said without looking at her fighting a smile. He knew what was going in her head.

"About us. I mean you and me-" Drisana said helplessly. How the hell people talk about this? Nakul turned to look at her with a blank expression. Okay. He wasn't going to make it easier. Drisana started taking a deep breath.

"When I first came here, I was confused. I thought I'd leave after sometime. I never felt like belonging. Even before coming here, I was always alone. But after meeting your family, I formed a bond with you all. I found my mother in Mata, big brother in Jyesth and bhrata Bheem, a friend in bhrata Arjun and Sahdev. And you became a companion who had been there for me. Since I came here, you were always there for me, looking after me, taking care, understanding my unspoken words. But still I thought I'd leave and so I didn't wanted to get involved. Then when I decided to remain with you after Varanavat, I still wanted to remain aloof. Because I didn't wanted to get hurt. I didn't trust you to always remain beside me. I was afraid, I still am that some day something will happen and you won't be with me anymore. Even through all the hardships in these past months you never failed to look after me. You were there even though I gave you no hope. And for the first time in my life, I feel like I belong. I feel at peace. I feel happy. I feel loved. And I'm afraid of losing this. I'm afraid of losing you. I want to be with you. Not for a limited time period. But for my whole life." One lone tear slipped her eye. Nakul closed his eyes for a moment. This was the first time they were talking about their feelings. Then opening his eyes he stepped close to her and cupped her face with one hand, brushing the tear with his thumb.

"Since the day you came into our life, I have wanted you beside me. You thought about leaving me and I thought about binding you. You didn't wanted to get hurt and I promised myself I won't let you get hurt. You didn't trust me to remain beside you and my only wish is to remain beside you till my last breath. You never gave me hope but you are my hope. I didn't take care of you, I took care of myself. When Jyesth said he'll drop you to Dwarka, for the first time in life I thought to oppose him. Dwarka was a long way and we could easily get separated and lost. That was in my mind. Am I selfish for wanting that? For wanting you? I don't care. And I don't regret it. You are afraid of losing and there is nothing I'm more sure of then remaining with you. You are afraid something will separate us and I know there is nothing powerful enough to separate me from you except death. All I need is for you to accept me, Drisana. Will you accept my love? Will you accept me not only in your life, but also in your heart, your mind, your soul? Will you be my wife?" Nakul said staring straight at her eyes.