Fate | n.h

Lost (Part 2)

**I just want to give a warning before you read on. This chapter deals with suicide. If this by any means is a trigger for you please don't read on.** 

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Leah's POV 

Black. I saw no other colors but black. Where the hell am I? I quickly realized that my eyes were closed, but why? 

Confused on what happened I began examining myself. I've noticed that I have cuts and bruises all over my body. From what? I was looking at my surroundings and saw that there was a giant cliff to my right. Did I fall off the cliff? 

The last thing I remember before I woke up was that I was running. I was running hard. I don't remember falling. I am not even sure if I did fall. All I know at this very moment is I need to get out of here. 

"FUCK!" I screamed. 

As I tried to stand up there was an excruciating pain in my left leg. I sighed as I realized that I can't be here whining over my leg. I was vulnerable and I needed to leave, and I needed to leave quick.

As I took my first step I winced at the pain. Damn, it hurt so bad. I didn't want to go any further but I knew I had to. I knew if I stopped for just a moment, it would allow him to catch up to me. 

Eric... 

I almost forgot about the kidnapping and the fact that he was chasing me. I was too distracted by the enormous amount of pain I was in. Knowing that he was still out there made the pain even worse. 

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I've been walking for hours, more like dragging my left leg. I could barely put pressure on it. I think it might be broken. However, that wasn't on top of my list of worries. 

 I'm in the middle of nowhere with no food or water. I was never trained to be in situations like this. 

I am alone and I am afraid. Saying that I am afraid is an understatement. I can't even put into words what I'm feeling right now. 

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As my journey to freedom continues I've grown weaker. The fact that I'm dehydrated and starving doesn't help my situation. 

"What's the point" I thought to myself.

 I've been running for so long that I'm defeated. I don't know where I am. I don't have any food. I don't have any water. 

I think I've lost the will to live. A part of me wishes that an animal would come and take all my worry away. The thought of an animal tearing my flesh apart brought me peace. 

I kept walking as I was contemplating whether or not I was going to end my life. I kept going back and forth on the difficult decision. But, before I made a decision my body decided to sit on the hard ground and wait. 

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I've waited for what seemed like hours, but really it was only like thirty minutes. I was growing impatient. I wanted an animal to end my life right now.

 I was tired of fighting. I was tried of the heartbreak. I was tired of the constant pain. I was tired of being dirt underneath someone's shoe. I was just tired of being tired. 

It was getting dark out and I wanted my life to end already. 

I thought to myself that maybe the animals didn't know I was there. So I did the only thing I could think of. I scrambled on the hard ground and found the sharpest rock I could find. 

I took a deep breath, closed my eyes and counted, "1..2.." Before I got to three Niall popped into my head. Tears started forming in eyes just thinking about him. 

I didn't want to leave him. I just wanted to leave my pain. When I am with him all my pain and worries disintegrates. However, as soon as I am alone for one second it all comes crumbling back.  

I loved Niall. I loved him so much. I know my death will hurt him and for that I am so incredibly sorry. 

I wish I could stare in his beautiful blue eyes, hear his contagious laugh and see that award-winning smile one more time. Thinking about him makes me sob uncontrollably. 

I took a deep breath and continued counting, "1..2..3.."

Once I got to three I took the sharp rock and slit both my wrists. I was bleeding a lot. I was hoping that the animals would smell it and end everything. 

A few minutes later I started to feel woozy from all the blood loss. From a distance I heard howling from an unknown animal. 

 "Finally" I thought to myself.  All my pain and suffering will come to an end. 

As I sat there I started to feel myself drift away. 

"Niall, I love you" I said out loud as I fell backwards unconscious. 

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Author's Note:

Hello everyone!

 First of all, I wanted to apologize for taking FOREVER to update! I started writing this chapter last week, but I was bombarded with assignments from my professors. I didn't have any free time until today.

I do want to apologize if this chapter was uncomfortable for anyone. If I ever write about a serious topic, I will always leave warnings before the chapter begins. 

I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter. As always, if you have any suggestions on how the story should continue please feel free to leave a suggestion in the comments.