A Fading Memory

Day 842*

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S: You know ..

*silence*

S: When you left yesterday, I told you to wait. But you were already gone for the third time and then reality hit me. I don't know why, but yesterday felt like we're saying our last goodbyes. Come to think of it .. we didn't really say goodbye and I wish *breaks into tears* .. that I just get one chance one fucking chance to say goodbye in a proper way. 

*silence*

S: I loved you, hell I still do and I don't know if there will ever be a day where I will stop.  

*Silence*

S: Damn it. Say something!!

*Silence*

*1 minute*

*2 minutes*

*3 minutes* 

S: *sniff* I guess this is it then.

*shivers*

H: I think it is doll ..

S: You're here !! *whispers*

H: Because you want me to be here..

S: I don't know -- I don't know if I can ever let go .. *sniff*

H: You don't have to let go love .. Although, you need to learn how to move on baby.

S: *sniff*  You're the best thing that happened to me.

H: "Were" baby not "are" .. and I could say the same about you, you were and always be the best thing that happened to me and I couldn't be more thankful for that day when you hit my car. *low chuckles*

S: No no noo .. You are, you exist I know you do, I can see you, I can feel, hell I can even touch you …….. Hold on a second why can't I touch you ?!!! I--I-- I used to be able to!! *yells*

H: Because I'm just a fading memory love .. It's time you let go baby, please .. do it for me.

S: How--how could you possibly ask me to do such a thing. Are you-- are you out of your mind!!

H: Doll, I must leave now ..

S: Noo-- Nooo, I refuse to let go of you yet, I can't .. I never got a chance to say goodbye to you and now you just want to leave like that.. How could you *breaks into more tears*

H: There is nothing that I can do about it and you know that .. I know baby that life is unfair .. We lose those who we love, but it isn't the end of the world. You need to move on and start a new part. End this part once and for all, I only exist in your head you can do it baby .. I know you can, It's what's best for you, believe me.

S: No!! You are in no position to tell me what is best for me .. I will NOT let go of you not now not never!!

H: I AM DEAD .. It's about time you start believing this, I can't stick around any longer love .. I am not telling you to forget me, what I'm asking you to do is to simply stop holding on to me like I am still here and alive because I AM NOT.

S: But -- but I love you! and if I do so, it means I'm betraying you and the love we once had.

H: There is my girl, you said it yourself "we once HAD", we no longer have it. And no, don't ever think for once that you're betraying that love .. I want to see you happy that's all, I'm tired of seeing those beautiful eyes always crying over a memory.

S: You're not a mem--

H: I am baby, I am a memory .. *steps closer*

S: What are you doing?

H: Kissing you goodbye ..

S: I--don't--

H: Hushh, close your eyes for me ...

*closes her eyes*

H: I will always be watching over you .. I love you doll, never forget that.

S: I love you too

*she says to no one in particular*

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The End.