A THOUSAND STARS ☆ | tk.

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Jeongguk was sitting on a chair, Taehyungs cold hand enveloped in both of his warm large hands. It had been a few hours since he himself woke up, had lost his vision after the shock.

It was a miracle to him that Taehyung had survived, but he could never complain, he was just happy he was stabilized breathing, lying on the hospital bed in front of him. Half of his other mind was worried about their son, Soobin, who was being taken care of by Jeongguks mom. after hearing what had happened, she took soobin in with big arms and yet the boy didnt know what a tragic thing had happened to his parent. but as long as he didn't know, yet, Jeongguks mind was at peace that he wasn't freaking out.

Jeongguks cheeks were dried with tears, nose still stuffy from all the crying, but one question kept jumping around in his head, and that was 'Why?'
Why did Taehyung wanna end his life? Had Jeongguk done something lately that made him trigger to act this way? He knew Taehyung's parents weren't so close but what if something happened to them and he couldn't deal with it?
He was scared, he was having so many doubts on whether he was enough right now for the love of his life, the one man he would set foot down in front of everyone just to kneel in front of him and give him everything that he desires, because his smile made his world sparkle with rainbows and happiness, along with his son of course.
It just broke him in many ways upon why now was he lying in a hospital bed, wrists both bandaged up, weakly breathing with support of a nasal cannula by his nose.

Jeongguk only caressed his husbands hand gently, kissing it at times and leaving few pecks. he just rested his hot head onto his cold hand, definitely the loss of blood making his body much colder and weaker.
"please just wake up" Jeongguk just whispers out desperately, just wanting to hear Taehyungs voice. Tears now pricked his eyes while slowly unfolding and dripping down his cheeks for the 5th time today, so many times crying left his eyes burning as well.

Sniffing, he pulled his head up and with anothwr hand, he caressed Taehyung's hair, putting it back so his forehead is exposed and gently tuckt it behind his ear, leaning to kiss his forehead then his nose and peck his lips before sitting back on the chair.
he was definitely looking like a mess himself, with hair messy with sweat from the stress, his jacket on the floor but still wearing his work white button up that was half unbuttoned cause he was so hot and his black dress pants.

he wasn't going to leave here without seeing his lovers big brown dough eyes flutter open and his beautiful deep voice speak.

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It had been a couple of hours, 4 in the morning and no sleep for Jeongguk had arrived, he just couldn't put his head down knowing Taehyung might wake up and he will need him.
But he had gotten out for a few minutes out the hospital to go grab some flowers to bring back, of course during that time having the fear Tae was awake and lost right now, but that still never happened as he was still sleeping.

He walked around the room nervously till he heard his phone ringing, going to pick it up while reading the caller ID.
"hey mom," he said tiredly, his mother of course understanding he probably hadn't gotten any sleep because of his voice.
"oh bunny, still no luck?" his mother asked with worry. Taehyung was like her own son, he had helped her alot and he was just an angel.
"no still not" Jeongguk looked over at Taehyung and sighed, "Im scared he isn't gonna wake up for a while, mom i dont want that, i want him now" he sniffed and slowly crouched down against the wall, falling onto the floor.

His mother only listened carefully and sighed, "Please dont ever lose hope on him bunny, i know he is gonna wake up soon, just please sleep for some time, i dont think he would be so happy to see you all exhausted when he wakes up" she tries to reassure him. it wasnt hard to convince Jeongguk into doing something, specially if it was his mom or Taehyung saying it so he only sighed and agreed.
"okay, please take care of soobin and dad and yourself, dont tell Soobin yet anything, just say we have something important to do" he said before saying his goodnights, or more like goodmornings to his mother and got off the ground, slipping his phone in his pocket.

He walked over to the familiar seat and sat down, taking Taehyung's hand into his again and laying his head on his hand, "just please wake up baby, i need you" he muttered before eyes closing and slowly drifting away to sleep, with the thought of Taehyung being better and waking up soon.