It was the first day of school. It's been maybe 3 weeks since I saw them all. I haven't really spoke to anyone except my family. I was sad because my best friend Allan , had committed suicide.. I couldn't tell him about my first day or anything. I was so sad..
(Suicide: this is for real if anyone is feeling suicidal , please know my dms are open, I'm always happy to have another friend. I know what it's like. I will sit and listen to you 24/7 and support you. So just know that your amazing and you mean the world to me😘 keep your head up beautiful❤️)
When I woke up , I took a shower and brushed my teeth and hair. This is what I wore:
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I kept my hair out. But the shoes meant a lot to me since Allan gave me them, and he also had a matching pair.
Later on my mum took me to school, she walked me inside the school building. We was at reception and we had got my time table.
Y/m: you know I love you mija Y/n: yes mum Y/m: listen Allan would want you to have the best first day of school for him Y/n: your right mum Y/m: I love you baby (She pulls me in for a hug) Y/m: I got to go mija , I love you. Reception lady: darling we have someone on the way to show you two ur class okay Y/n: yes ma'am Reception lady: call me miss honey (she said in a calming voice) Alvaro: Oh hey Freya Miss honey: here he is, have a lovely day darling. If you need anything come to me. Y/n: okay thank you
(Alvaro pulled me in for a big hug, he seemed worried)
Alvaro: where have u been? Y/n: at home Alvaro: you could have told us you was alright Y/n: mhm Alvaro: mattia has been worried sick Y/n: oh okay Alvaro: Freya ur really not okay , let me take your number so I can check on you (I grabbed his phone and put my number in) Alvaro: thanks , now let's get going (We arrived to class and everyone looked at me) Teacher: hello miss diaz Y/n: mhm Teacher: you okay Y/n: yes miss , my bad Teacher: okay sit next to Alvaro please.
(I sat next to Alvaro, immediately I look around and catch someone with a blue hoodie on look at me, he looked pale) Y/n: who's that guy? Alvaro: uhm Dw
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Kairi🧞 Freya!!! Freya💕 Hello Kai!! Roshaun😎 Finally Freya! Alejandro🧟♀️ Ikr took so long for you to talk to us
(Class has ended , we walk to the hallways. When we got there I saw the same guy in the blue hoodie. I tried to look at his face but he looked at way when he noticed me)
Y/n: uhm (I grab his arm and walk away from the group , the all look at me confused)
Y/n: let me see your face ??: no Y/n: why not! ??: because I'm embarrassed (I look at the boys to see who's missing, I looked back and immediately knew who it was) Y/n: tia you can't hide your face for long , I will eventually see it
(I heard a bit of a sniffle from mattia like he was crying) Y/n: tia wats wrong , are you okay Mattia: I really missed you and I thought something happened to you. Y/n: tia... I'm sorry it's just I needed personal space rn. Mattia: but I wanna spend time with you Y/n: I know it's just really weird I haven't seen u in 3 years , and now you look like someone else. When I think of you , I think of you when you was 14. A completely different boy, and I have to think twice... (Mattia pulled me into a hugged, I put arms around his waist and hid my face in his chest) Y/n: tia you know I love you , but u cant be worried sick about me like this it makes me wanna cry Mattia: you promise you love me? Y/n: I promise (After school, I just felt like shit, I really miss allan, but then I felt someone grab me before I left. It was kairi)
Kairi: where r u going Y/n: home? Kairi: you seem off are you okay (I start to tear up, kairi hugs me) Y/n: I lost my best friend Allan, he committed suicide a couple days ago, I really miss him Kairi: it's okay Freya I got you (He tightened his grip, which made me feel safe) Roshaun: let me in the hug hoes! Alvaro: me to bitches (We all started hugging) Y/n: thanks guys this makes me feel so happy that I have you guys.
Max: FREYA! Y/n: max? Max: mum is waiting , cmon Y/n: I'm coming Y/n: alright guys I have to go love you (They all waved by and I got in the car as we started driving I saw mattia) Y/n: hey mum can u pull over , I'm gonna walk with mattia Y/m: okay baby , be safe Y/n: love you mum and you two max
(I run up to him slightly jumping on his back) Y/n: hello tia!!! Mattia : Freya! (He picked me up , I rapped my legs around his waist and hand my arms around his neck and he spun round) Y/n: you okay ? Mattia: yes are you? Y/n: mhm Mattia: uh Freya? Y/n: yes tia? Mattia: I feel like something is wrong... Y/n: mattia don't worry I'll be fine , it's just complicated I don't wanna talk about it okay! (I say while walking next to him , I grab his arm and put it around my shoulder. When I looked at him I he had a big smile on his face) Mattia: I love you Freya , please don't ever leave me again! Y/n: how about we have a sleepover tonight at my house?! Mattia: uh sure! Y/n: okay make sure to tell your mum! Mattia: I will also ask her to drop some clothes off.
(Later we had then arrived at home, mattias mum dropped clothes off. My mum said her , dad and max r gonna go away for two days, she said she will be back)
