My Poems

Broken Mackenzie

he forgot about me... just like everybody else. i'm always the runner-up, never number one. no one will ever want me as much as i want them. i gave him the world... and what did i get in return? heartbreak. i can't sleep because i'm hurting so bad, i loved him and he just tossed me aside like i was nothing. now, he's probably forgotten about my whole entire existence. boys need to learn : DO NOT LEAD A GIRL ON, JUST TO BREAK HER HEART. we are HUMAN, not TOYS. i believe that's almost every girl's weakness : caring. or falling too fast. note to self, the faster you fall, the harder you'll fall. i feel like it's my fault. i'm not enough, not pretty enough, not skinny enough, not "perfect" enough, just not enough. so what do i do now? pick up the pieces? try to fix myself and trust someone else with my heart? the last fews times i've done this have ended horribly, i can't handle myself alone though. my thoughts kill me and i need someone to vent to, but i don't have that person. everyone needs that backbone that supports them and is there for them. i don't have a backbone. probably why i make such stupid decision. holding on, the days drag on. stupid girl, i should've known. i'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale, but i'm gonna find someone somebody who might actually treat me well... right, we'll see if that happens. until then, i will continue picking up the pieces of my broken little self, hoping, and waiting. this heartache will not be the death of me, no it hurts really bad, but in the end, it will make me stronger than i was before and maybe i'll learn from mistakes to not put myself out there as much, keep to myself and chose VERY carefully who i give my trust to, because trust is a fragile thing. hard to earn, easy to break. i can't possibly be the only one feeling the way i do constantly... broken, hurt, lost, and alone. or am?
~MG~