noah beck x blake gray

Chapter 22

Warning: self harm...

Noah's POV

     I walked inside the front door and ignored everyone's, "heys" and "hi's" and went straight to Blake.

     I opened the door and he was laying in bed. I closed it and stood there. "How are you?" I said walking to the end of the bed. He got up and yelled, "it's none of your fucking business now." And walked out.

    I ran after him through out the whole house gaining weird looks from all the boys Wondering what was going on. "You don't have to act like this." I said still following him. He stopped for a minute then turned around.

    "You didn't have to assume I cheated on you, you didn't have to leave, you didn't have to lie to me and tell me that you trusted me when we met, because that was fucking bullshit!

     You could've asked me what I did while I was there and I would have told you but no! And I bet you don't even give a fuck that I've been crying over you all day, I haven't taken my meds in days, I started cutting myself again! YOU. DONT. FUCKING. CARE. ABOUT. ME!"

I grabbed him and pushed him against the wall and the boys knew what I was doing. I rolled up his sleeves and there was nothing. I knew Blake was smarter than that.

     I grabbed him and took him upstairs. "PUT ME DOWN NOAH!" he screamed. I brought him in the room and ripped his pants down. I sat criss cross on the floor and I couldn't stop looking at his thighs.

     There were at least 100 cuts there.

Blake's POV
I realised there was no point in me yelling at him anymore. I put my hands in his hair as his fingertips brushed the cuts on my legs.

    He looked up at me. As he spoke, choked up a little. "Why... Would you do that? I'm supposed to protecting you, but I'm the one that's hurting you."  I sat on my knees and hugged him.

     He pulled away and by then I was an  emotional crybabies. "Im so sorry, I should of told you that I was leaving."

     He shook his head, "I shouldn't have overreacted. Its really not your fault." So, friends?" I smiled. He shook his head, "yeah, friends."

"Promise me you wont cut yourself." He looked down at me and for once I looked back up at him. "I wont... I promise." He stood up and kissed my forehead, "this is goodbye for now." He smiled and hugged me. "I'll miss you." He said into my chest. "I'll miss you too bud."

Noah's POV

     I walked out of the room and said goodbye to all the boys. I got back into my car. I was happy that we weren't mad at each other anymore, but I don't wanna be friends. I wanna be with him, and maybe marry him and start a family.

     I guess if Blake is happy with us just bring friends, then I guess I am too. I'm about to drive almost 9 hours away from the person I want to be around the most... That's crazy.

Blake's POV

      I didn't wanna think about having feelings for Noah so I decided to go back to sleep, in our bed, that we shared, that he slept in, that smelt like him, that he fucked me in, that we talked in, and where all my tears always went to.

      I want him back... But he's gone now...