Into the Unknown

One

Two weeks had passed after I was released from the hospital. Pinili kong mag-stay muna sa bahay kasama sila Mama sa unang linggo. After of 2 months of slumber, I think I deserve to be with them for a week. My parents took a day off from work for 2 days so we could go out and have a family bonding.

Mabilis lang naayos ang bills ko sa hospital, maybe Jun really paid for the half of my bills. Nang itanong ko kila Mama kung magkano ang inabot na bayarin, they just told me that it's already paid and nothing I should be worried about. Siguro kay Jun ko na lang itatanong so I know how much I should save.

Napagpasyahan kong magpunta na sa boarding house on friday so I could have 3 days before school to prepare for my requirements and also to adjust myself once again to my surroundings. Expected ko na ang tambak na ipapasa pero humihiling pa rin ako na sana bigyan nila ako ng kahit kaunting konsiderasyon.

I planned to find a part time job so I can pay Jun as soon as possible. Alam kong hindi naman niya ko mamadaliin magbayad pero gusto ko pa rin siyang bayaran agad. Hindi kasi ako sanay na may pinagkaka-utangan.

Kasalukuyan akong naghahanap ng mga naiwan kong notes sa kwarto nang may kumatok sa pinto. I stand to open the door and found Bryan outside.

"Welcome back!" masigla niyang bati.

"Where are the notes?" I asked ignoring his enthusiastic.

"Where is my hug?" he asked with a tone same as mine.

Mahina ko siyang tinulak palayo para makalabas at magtungo ng sala. Walang tao at mukhang kaming dalawa lang ni Bryan ang nandito sa bahay. I turned to him.

"Where are the others?"

"Still at school." he occupied the sofa and turned on the TV. Tumungo na lang ako ng kusina para maghanap ng makakain. Kanina pa ako nagugutom.

"Jun cooked tinola earlier, put in on microwave if you want to eat." I just nodded and grab the food from the refrigerator. While I was waiting for the tinola, I go back to living room and seat on the couch beside of his.

"Bakit ang aga mo pala? Nag-cutting ka no?" pang-aasar ko sa kaniya.

"Everyone is busy at school and their stress is suffocating me so I decided to go here." he said still eye on the TV.

Tumango na lang ako. Sa aming lima, si Bryan ang stress free, totally opposite of Shan. Maybe because he don't like the course he enrolled but for the sake of his parents, still he took it. Hindi ko alam kung kailan nya ipupursue ang gusto niyang maging. Life is too short for him to do things he doesn't love to.

"Lori, by any chance..." he trailed off.

Nanatili akong nakatingin sa kanya at hinihintay ang gusto niyang sabihin habang inoobserbahan ang ekspresyon ng mukha niya. I have a feeling that it is about my lost memories.

"Nothing. Forget about it." ibinalik niya ulit ang kaniyang tingin sa pinapanood. Tumayo ako para kunin na ang ininit na tinola.

"Sebastian will drop by here later, just want you to know." mabilis niyang aniya.

Tumango ako kahit alam kong hindi niya makikita dahil nakatalikod pa rin ako sa kaniya at ipinagpatuloy ang paglalakad papuntang kusina. I'll just eat here on the counter top of our kitchen. Tingin ko kasi ay pinagdududahan ako ni Bryan kung talagang hindi ko natatandaan si Sebastian na sinasabi nila.

I don't really recall meeting him and them telling me that he is my boyfriend is really a shocking news when I don't even remember having one. I feel sorry for the guy, it must be hurtful for him to be forgotten by his girlfriend. Pero anong magagawa ko hindi ko talaga siya maalala. At sa unang pagkakita ko sa kaniya nang nagising ako ay sumakit lang ang ulo ko sa hindi malamang dahilan. Hindi lang ang ulo ko ang sumakit, kumirot din ang puso ko na siyang pinagtataka ko.