My birthday is next week. Exactly one week from now. I'm turning 14. You know what's weird? I don't feel any different. I mean, a lot of stuff has happened in the past year, but I just think, or atleast I thought I was supposed to change. Mature. Be older. Look older. Be a big kid. But I don't. Is it that I'm so insecure I'm blocking something? I'm just not sure. I feel like I'm the exact same person I was in 8th grade. I should feel different, older, cooler, more independent, something, but I don't. I'm looking forward to turning 14 so I fit in with the other freshman, but I know in the back of my mind that people will still be negative towards me. I just don't know. I have good grades, some friends, and I saw Hunter last weekend. Everything sounds perfect. I still feel like something is missing. Something.
