count on me┃jaeyong

⌜ thirty one ⌟

heart beating rapidly, panic rising up, breaths uneven, and thoughts being unsettled.

jaehyun was waiting outside of the room, patiently but couldn't seem to compose himself from thinking as to what could possibly happen to taeyong. fortunately for them, the doctor arrived just in time. though, he felt useless as he was just being forced outside as the doctor does the work. he wanted to help but it was suggested for him to first get a grip of himself as it wasn't a great idea to deal with a patient while being in his panic state.

❝jaehyun.❞ and then his mother called him.

looking like a mess with his hair disheveled, eyes puffed red, and lips swollen from being bitten in uneasiness, the said male had turned his head to the side and was met with cold hands cupping his face.

❝jaehyun,❞ she called him out once more, making him look at her straight in the eye. ❝you first need to calm down.❞

❝m-mom, i'm so stupid!❞ he had his voice raised at her. not because he was fuming at how she told him to calm down at a situation like this, but because he was mad at himself. ❝i didn't get to know about his condition and i did all those to him. i didn't get to realize it sooner and i risked his life countless of times! on those dates, on taking him out of the house late at night, i even made him play basketball even with the weak heart he had. mom, i'm—❞

❝do you think taeyong would love seeing you like this?❞ she could see the pain in his eyes and it honestly hurts her, as his mother.

❝b-but i was the one who caused that!❞ moving away, jaehyun had a hand running through his hair with a huff. ❝if only i w-was careful enough with him then this wouldn't have happened.❞

❝jaehyun.❞

❝there were already signs showing, yet, i didn't seem to put much thought in to it!❞ he was blaming himself badly in this situation, wanting to hurt himself for putting someone else's life in danger. ❝how can i be so stupid? if only—❞

❝jung jaehyun!❞