Living in L.A // Dream LA boys

• Chapter five •

                             Val's pov

    On the way home I contemplated on telling Bryan about my feelings, and I decided that if I didn't tell him now, I never would. I just never want to hurt him. He's my best friend. Once we got to the house I motioned Tyler to sit on the couch, and he did so. "Hey Bryan, can I talk to you upstairs please?" I ask him contently. "Yeah, of course Vals." On the way up the stairs, my hands got all clammy and sweaty. Oh god don't start to freak out now Val.

    We got to my room, and I sat on the bed, Bryan quietly sad down beside me. "Okay, so this is going to be the hardest conversation of my life, and I just want you ti sit here and listen to me, please don't get upset okay?" I tell him as I close my eyes and take a deep breath. He nods his head not saying a word. "Bryan, I um, I have had these feelings for you, for as long as I can remember, and I ignore them because I know your in love with me, hell every one does. I just don't wanna hurt you, because I know that you love me way more than I could ever love you, I don't want to hurt you. Your my best friend, my protector, my world, but there is someone else who is madly in love with you, and what kind of best friend would I be if I took away the opportunity for you two to be together. I get it if your mad at me for the rest of our lives, I just had to tell you." I finally let out a breathe of relief, a weight lifted from my chest.

    Bryan brings his hand to my cheek and wiped away the tears I hadn't known that fell. "Vals I'm so fucking in love with you, that I would spend a lifetime waiting for you to love me back the same way, but I know that you could never love me the way I love you. Im just angry that I had a chance, that you once loved me the same way and I lost you. Im so fucking upset. Like fuck, I just, fuck." He kissed my cheek and walked out of my room and slammed the door shut. "Fuck" I heard him yell once he made it to the living room.

    I was laying in my bed, eyes drenched in tears, my pillow darkened in eye shadow. I heard footsteps come up the stairs and a faint knock on the door, "come in" I sniffle. Tyler comes into my room. "I told him and now I think he hates me. I broke his fucking heart and I can't fix that, he's going to hate me forever Tyler" I sob. "He won't hate you forever, he'll be okay, you guys will be okay" he whispers as he walks over to me lays me on his lap, he kisses my head, and plays with my hair as I cry into his arms, he tightens his hold on me. I finally stopped crying.

    "Thank you Tyler, thank you for being one of my best friends, for being someone I know I can trust with my life. Your the best person in this world." I tell him as I play with his hand thats laying on my lap. God I love his hands, so fucking sexy. Like please your hands would make an amazing necklace. We then just talked about life and how draining being an influencer can be at times. That shit takes a toll on you.

    "You should go talk to Bryan, tell him I'm sorry" I say sadly. He kissed my forehead. He walked out of my room, so I just laid in bed stalking him on Instagram because come on he is highly attractive. I hear a knock on my door and it opens to reveal my best friend Chris. "Heyyyy Christopherrrr" I say happily. "Hey twin" he replies as he plops on my bed, "oo I see you insta stalking Tyler, he is pretty cute and your type, plus he's super sweet" he tells me as he braids my hair.

    Chris leaves after a while of gossiping. As soon as he leaves Bryan busts into my room, with tears in his eyes. "God Valentine, I would never hate you, I love you, your my best friend, you make me so happy, I wouldn't trade you for the world" He tells me so emotionally. "Please don't leave me, I can't live without you" I tell him scarcely. "Never" He tells me. It scares me when he isn't around. I feel vulnerable. "I won't vals, I promise you that I won't I can't live without you" Bryan told me as he kissed my forehead. "I just need time to think, im going home for a couple of days" he tells me sadly. He walks out of my room and gently shuts the door.

I laid down on the bed and just decided to turn off my phone and get some sleep. I tossed and turned all night. Why couldn't I just love him. It would have saved us so much heartbreak and misery.

    I go to my closet and look for that dull box with the sharp blades that I keep under all my clothes. I pull out the sharpest blade, "god val you promised Chris and Bryan you wouldn't do this anymore, but hell you broke your best friends heart you deserve the pain" I think to myself. I hold the blade to my skin "one for not loving him" cut, "one for hurting him" cut, "one for loving someone else" cut, "and one for being stupid" cut. I started to feel woozy so I cleaned myself up, wrapped a bandage around my wrist, and went back to bed.

    It was around 7 in the morning so I got up got dressed in my comfy clothes, threw on a hoodie and went downstairs to make everyone breakfast. I made some eggs and bacon because I know everyone loves a simple but effective breakfast. I also put on some coffee because it has been a long night and I am super sleepy.

    As I'm making the bacon I feel eyes on me, and I know who it is because I know the smell of him from anywhere. "Hey Ty, I can feel you staring" I giggle. "I can't help it if your cute" he replies, oh he thinks he is so sly. 'You as well' I think to myself smiling and blushing like an idiot. "Stop it" I whisper knowing damn well he loves the reaction he's getting right now. He flirts way too much, but I can't deny I love it.

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