Earned It

Chapter Thirty- The EMILY Ward

I stand shocked over Pat's dead corpse. I knew he had issues but I would not have expected them to be as bad as this.

I slowly move away from the body. I feel my stomach bubble until my mouth feels full. I managed to make my way to the sink where I vomited Harry's cum that I swallowed moments ago. I look up at myself in the mirror.

I can't even recognize this girl anymore.

I don't know who i am. What has my life turned to since Harry has come into it. I've been around so much death I can't handle it.

I rinse my face with the cold funeral house water and try to compose myself. I exit the bathroom to see Bens ceremony continuing.

I scan the room but can't see Harry anymore. He must have left.

James is screaming at the podium.

"WHAT IS WRONG WITH THAT FAMILY!! THEY MURDERED BEN CAUSE HE LOVED ME. THEY SHOULD BE LOCKED UP FOREVER."

He falls to the ground. Shannon runs up to the podium to console her ex. She manages to get the sobbing man up from the ground and to a seat.

A man emerges from the bathroom screaming.

"SOMEONES DEAD IN THE BATHROOM!"

Gasps are heard throughout the room and people stand to check out what is going in on.

"Who was it" People begin to question. It feels like everything happened so quickly. The cops show up and rush him to the hospital.

We are told to leave but before I do I head over to my best friends and hug them.

They need me more than ever now.

The silence tells it all. We have all been through it since school started this year.

I drive the two of them home and we sit in silence the entire way.

I get a text from my Fran later that night. They confirmed Pat was dead. I can only imagine how Tyler feels with all of this. He lost two of his best friends in one day.

~tylers pov~

I feel nothing. I have been void of emotion since I received that text. How. How can I lose everything I have in one day. All my friends. Die. Maybe it's my turn...

I sit in my room. Alone (by Halsey). Normally it would be filled with laughter throughout the room. All of us cracking up to one of Pats dumb jokes. Or making fun of ben for being a big dumb dumb. But now... Ben is dead dead. it's silent throughout the room.

I sit in the darkness on my bed. How to disappear by Lana is playing. maybe it's my time to disappear.

I head down to the garage to grab a rope. My parents question me but I don't respond. I have a mission. I walk downstairs to my basement. I attach the rope to a water pipe hanging from the ceiling and set the scene.

I begin to cry. I can't4 control myself anymore. Everything is compelling me to do this. A chair is placed directly under the rope. I stand on the chair and place my head through the rough rope. Its tight...good thing I was a boy scout.

I realize this is my last moment of life. I text my parents and tell them I love them. I stand proud and kick the chair back letting the weight of my body be held from the pipe. Everything goes black and I lose consciousness...

I wake up in a strange room. My neck is stiff and its sunny. Is this heaven?

I try to move but I physically cannot. I look to see IVs attached to my arm and both my parents sitting at the edge of my bed.

"He's awake.OmG He's awake!" Shouts my mom. Ive never seen her this excited for anything. I try to respond. My mom notices me struggle.

"No, don't say anything. You broke your neck, we don't want you to strain anything."

I stay laying and the nurses come in to check on me.

They take my parents out of the room to talk and my dad is crying. I've never seen him cry before.

They all enter. The nurse begins to talk. "So Tyler, I have some bad news for you even though you just woke up. You are going to be placed into a psych ward to mentally evaluate where you're at, but along with your broken neck you also broke your voice box and won't be able to speak ever again."

Did I just hear that right? Im mute. This day couldnt get any worse. First im alive and then im mute...

The nurse says she'll take me in a couple of days, but i can't even respond now cause im mute.

The days pass slowly. Me in my thoughts and my neck brace waiting patiently for them to take me to the psych ward. Surprisingly, my neck doesn't hurt that bad. That is probably because of the insane amount of opioids they are giving me.

I haven't had opioids this strong since I hung (this is my trigger word now btw) out with jack.

The nurse finally takes me to The EMILY Ward. The Enslaved mentally Ill Livin' Youth Ward. It is a dull place and its hard to communicate with anyone because i cant fucking speak.

They place me on the first day and I see a girl who looks familiar but I can't call her over. I tap the nurse to grab that girl in the corner of the room for me.

The nurse walks over and brings the girl and introduces her to me.

It's Hadley from Achenson??