Abused and Broken (l.h + a.i)

one

Ashton.

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   I woke up to my phone alarm blaring The Fray. I just groaned and rolled onto my stomach. After about 5 minutes of laying there I stood up and I felt really dizzy. I haven't eaten a real meal in 2 weeks. Yet, I am still fat and ugly and worthless and pathetic. At least that's what everyone at school says. So why shouldn't I believe them?

  "Ashton get in the fucking shower you have school!" My father yelled from downstairs, breaking me from my thoughts.

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   As I stepped out of the bathroom my dad stormed into the hall and pushed me out of the way to get to the bathroom. I sighed as I walked into my dark grey room to get ready for hell. I threw on a pair on black sweatpants and the grey hoodie I always wear. By the time I left the house I already missed the bus, so I had to walk to school. I didn't care if I was late I just wanted to think about everything.

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   "Hey fag!" Calum, one of my many bullies, yelled when I walked into the school. I just put my head down and hoped they would leave me alone. Of course with my luck I bumped into Michael. He was the worst bully I had.

  "Watch where you're going queer!" He pushed me to the ground while kicking me and yelling hurtful things.

  Fag.

Queer.

Pathetic.

Worthless.

  Those were a few words I heard on a daily basis. The worst part about them was they were true. After about 5 more kicks they all left me alone to cry. I already missed most of first period, so I went into the bathroom and locked myself in a stall. I dug through my bookbag until I found what I was looking for. My razor. I rolled up my sleeve and set the blade on to my pale, cut up skin.

One for being gay.

One for being worthless.

One for being ugly.

One for being fat.

And one for breathing.

  I looked down at all of my scars and fresh cuts as my blood trickled down my arm. Then, I heard a door open.

 

"Is someone in here?" I heard a voice who I recognized as Josh's. My crush.

"Y-yeah I'm almost done. Just hold on." I replied as I wrapped my arm with bandages from my bookbag. I heard a soft 'okay.' I stood up, wiped my eyes, unlocked the stall, and walked out.

"Oh my God! Ashton, are you okay?" He said with wide eyes.

"Yes." And with that I walked away.

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At lunch, I sat alone at my table with no food infront of me. Suddenly, Josh sat down across from me and started a conversation. I just blocked him out and thought about how worthless I was.

"So, will you come?"

"I'm sorry. What did you say?" I felt heat rise to my cheeks.

"I wanted to see if you would come over tonight?" He flashed his cheeky smile at me. I replied with a simple nod and I was alone again.

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When school ended I walked to Josh's house and knocked. He opened the door with a wide smile. He was wearing black skinny jeans with a Pierce the Veil t-shirt. As I walked in he asked if I was hungry. I said 'no' and we went into his room.

"Do you want to watch a movie?" He asked shyly.

"Sure. Do you have Sky High?" I asked embarrassed at my choice.

"Uhm who doesn't have Sky High? That movie is life." He put the movie in and we sat on his bed watching the old movie.

  We were watching the part where Will ditched Layla at the Paper Lantern and she got mad. I could feel Josh looking at me.

"What?" I asked.

"Did anyone ever tell you how beautiful you are?" He said placing a hand on my cheek.

"N-no." I stuttered as he leaned in and kissed me. The kiss lasted about 5 seconds before I pulled away.

"Sorry. I just really like you."

"I like you too." I pushed some hair out of his face.

"Well then will you be my boyfriend?" He asked with confidence. I answered with a soft kiss.

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A/N

This is the first chapter. I really like this.

Trust me this will be a good story.

Anyway have a lovely day/night/morning lovlies!

°Alyssa°