Bestfriend {a KiriBaku fanfiction}

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TW: self harm, depression, and abuse

Kirishima's POV

i hear the bell ring and walk outside back to the dorms. i look down at the sidewalk, this wasn't the first time i'd been walking back alone but it was my fault- "SHITTY HAIR" 'shit' i stop walking "stop fucking doing that" i say nothing, all i do is look at him. even if i tried i couldn't speak. i've been avoiding him. i don't understand why i was so shy after that, I'M RUINING OUR FUCKING FRIENDSHIP!

"are you okay kirishima?" I run away before i could make myself cry, but it was already too late i felt my warm tears against the cold wind as i ran 'i'm the exact opposite of manly'. 

in his room in him and bakus dorms (no u didn't forget about them sharing a dorm)

i lock my door and lay on the floor, all my thoughts bombarding me 'you're so great at ruining your non-toxic friendships'  'what a loser' 'you'll never become a hero' 'haha look we can throw rocks at him' 'WEAKLING' 'stop acting like a girl!' 'smile.' 'shut up' 'boys don't cry' 'YOU LOOK AND ACT LIKE A GIRL!' 'gross' 'mommy he looks so scary' 'gay' 'dinosaur' 'demon'  'mistake' 'go get me a beer slave' 'oh him. hes NOT my son.' i scream as loud as i can. please please please go away i can't deal with you right now.. 

i come back to reality by hearing a knock on my door "k-kirishima??! are you okay?! please open the door.."  i remove my hands from my hair and sit up from being balled up the the floor. my hands are shaking and my face is covered in tears. "kirishima.. please open the door.. yo screamed.. are you okay? please ei" his voice cracked. he was being so nice to me and all i did was ignore him. i get up still shaking and unlock the door. 

i stand in front of the door watching it open. once i could see bakugos whole body i jumped at him crying once again "im sorry" i whisper to him

 "it's fine. just know you can talk to me" he hugged me back