Perfect Illusion - Woosan

hidden feelings

Author's p.o.v:

It was already Tuesday, wooyoung and yeosang were walking down the school hallway in the morning. Yeosang seemed like something was on his mind, which wooyoung caught on and decided to ask him about it.

"Sangie you seem like something's on your mind, is everything okay?"

"It's just that I was thinking about something that happened yesterday. I was texting jongho, and while we were jumping from a subject to another, we started talking about our past love life. I told him that I never went on a proper date which ended with him asking me on a date claiming that he'd show me how a real date goes." Yeosang said to his now hopping up and down best friend.

"Omg sangie I'm sooo happy for you!! But I still don't understand why you're so worked up." Wooyoung stated while slightly leaning his head in confusion.

"It's just that I'm a bit anxious about it, and by a bit I mean A LOT. What if he ends up getting bored of me or even hate me? What if he doesn't mean anything behind it being a date, and he thinks of me just as a friend? What if I end up being clumsy and ruin everything? What if-" yeosang alleged before getting cut off by wooyoung.

"Yeosang! Nothing like that will happen! Don't worry we both know that jongho is a nice guy, so be yourself and everything will be okay. And you can't let that opportunity slide!! I mean come on, you've been having a crush on him ever since last year and I've never seen a bitch as patient as you with their feelings!! Stop being a panicked homosexual and start being a raging one." wooyoung said sarcastically.

"Oh so you having a BIG. FAT. CRUSH. On san ever since middle school is not called patience in your opinion? Never seen a hoe as panicked as you." yeosang backfired.

"I am not panicked. It's called being scared of fucking things up. And less about me, let's go back to you. So, when is the date?"

"It's supposed to be tomorrow night after school but we're not going to stay too late since there's school the second day." Yeosang announced.

"Great! I need you to spill every drop of tea to me after that date! So how about you come over Thursday after school?" wooyoung asked excitedly.

"Yeah of course why not?" yeosang responded before they got to their first class together.

~~~~~time skip~~~~~

Thursday afternoon came, yeosang went to wooyoung's place right after school. They sat across each other on wooyoung's bed while wooyoung looked at yeosang with sparkles in his eyes waiting for him to describe what happened in his and jongho's date.

"So to summarize yesterday was the best night I've ever had. To start off, we went ice skating, it was my first time ever so I was really afraid, but luckily jongho was quite experienced and held me throughout the process. I felt like we were in our own world, and the butterflies in my stomach never left.

We then walked through the lightened up streets where there was a couple of food stands, one of them caught our eyes which was selling the Japanese fish shaped pastry with black bean paste inside of it, called "taiyaki". Jongho didn't even let me touch my wallet, he bought one for each one of us and then we walked towards a park where there was a nearby musician singing and playing the piano.

We sat on a bench where we could admire the city lights and listen to the pianist. Jongho grabbed my hand and looked into my eyes while singing along to the song. The lyrics where and I quote "my hands are shaking, my heart is racing, cause it's something I can't hide, it's something I can't deny, so here I go baby I love you."

I cannot tell you how many flips my heart did but it felt like I was under a spell, like I was in one of those love stories in the movies, plus his voice was just angelic and sounded as sweet as honey. We stayed on that bench for awhile before we both headed home with the promise of going on another date next week."

Wooyoung looked at yeosang in awe and engulfed him in a big warm hug before pulling away and squealing in disbelief.

"Omg yeosang!!! Go get you mannn!! I'm so happy for you!" wooyoung wiped a fake proud tear from under his eye.

"Now it's your turn! You can't keep your feelings towards san hidden forever!" yeosang said while slapping wooyoung's arm lightly

"It's just that I feel like he doesn't feel the same way as I do, for him I'm just his best friend." Wooyoung hang his head low.

"Did he ever tell you that? Have you ever confessed or hinted that you have romantic feelings towards him and him rejecting you?" yeosang arched an eyebrow.

Wooyoung was speechless, in all these years of being San's close friend and having feelings for him, he never brought the subject or even tried to. He always kept his feelings for himself scared of ruining their relationship that he treasures the most. Even though san was bisexual and wooyoung was gay and proud, the thought of losing san was haunting his mind but he always kept it in the back of his head.

"I-... I just don't know how to do it and I'm scared of ruining everything." Wooyoung quietly admitted.

"I understand you woo, I was in the same situation with jongho but now look at us! You can do it and I know it! I believe in you!" yeosang's sweet and honest words touched wooyoung deeply. He was really thankful for having such a best friend.

Suddenly, they both received a notification on their phones. It was an invitation to Felix's party that he was going to throw on Friday night.

"See there's Felix's party tomorrow, you have to try your luck with san to see how he will react!" yeosang cheerfully said.

Wooyoung's thoughts were pacing around in circles, but he eventually decided that he'll do it and if he fucks up he'll blame it on the alcohol.

"Let's get ready together for the party, come over tomorrow with your stuff and I'll glow you up, I guarantee you that san will fall for your charms!" yeosang gave the idea before they both approved and yeosang went back home.  

a/n:

that was a long chapter!! Around 1100 words we stan!😌

i hope you liked this chapter and like usual i'd love to hear your opinion on it !

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