Gin and Gin

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I left the country for 10 yrs and now that I'm back I don't know what to feel.

Terrified?

Maybe. Who wouldn't be scared to be here again after that night.
But no, I'm stronger than before.
Maybe I am just scared to see them again.

10 yrs may have passed but it feels like it happened yesterday.

The pain of losing someone I love is living inside me.

"Hello Uno, I'm back."

Uno...she's the most precious person in my life right now.
Without her I wouldn't be able to get back on my feet.

There she is, my lovely Uno walking towards me.

"Gin! Shit. I missed you. Finally you're here in flesh."

Yes, sa loob ng 10 years puro kami videocall, call and text lang.
I don't want her to visit me in South Korea where I trained so hard to be who I am today for my revenge. Plus I wasn't ready yet to introduce her to the man who helped me from there.

"I missed you too Uno. How's Dos and Tres?"

Dos and Tres are Fraternal twins. Hindi kami ganun kaclose dati nung buhay pa ang ex-husband ko na si Tyson. They were Tyson's old friends then after that incident we became close to each other.

"They're in our new place Gin, they've been waiting for you. Everyone is to thrilled to have you back."

She's smiling brightly, damn I miss this woman so much.

I closed my eyes, I looked around me and inhale deeply.

Hello, Philippines.
I'm back.

"Waaaaah Gin! Look at you, who'd tell that it's you? You look amazing as ever but there's something different in you. Yung mata mo, puno ng--" I hugged her to cut her off.

Si Dos, sya ang unang bumungad sa amin ni Uno sa bago naming tinitirahan dito sa Antipolo.
Before I left the country at nung buo pa ang pamilya ko lahat kami nakatira sa Makati. But Uno suggested that Antipolo would be a nice place for us to all live together since tahimik dito.

"Hi Dos, you haven't changed a bit. Maganda at madaldal parin. Nasaan si Tres?" Natatawa ko syang nilampasan, she hates it kapag pinuputol sya in the middle of her sentence. At lagi ko namang ginagawa yun para asarin sya.

"Present!" Speak of the devil. Si Tres, ang twin brother ni Dos. Unlike Dos, tahimik na tao si Tres, laging may sariling mundo.

He made a move on me few months after Tyson's death but I only see him as a friend.

"Tres!" There he is, nakaupo sa couch ng sala at wait umiinom? It's nearly 10 am. I guess hindi parin nagbabago ang bad habit ng isang to. "Ang aga na naman nyang alak mo ah!"

"Hay naku Gin, alam mo naman alak na ang dumadaloy sa sa sistema nyan. Diba kaya nga sila magkasundo ni Tyson?" Hearing his name after 10 yrs sent a different kind of unknown emotions in my body. I looked at Dos sweetly and regret is evident in her face. They know how much it pains me to hear that name.

I smiled sweetly acting like it didn't affect me at all. "Oo nga no? That's why Tres and Tyson was the best of friends."

"Watch your mouth Dos." Si Uno na busy mag-ayos ng mga gamit ko ay naiinis na pinagalitan si Dos. I looked at Dos at dali-dali syang umakyat sa hagdan papunta sa second floor. I guess mag-mumukmok ulit sa room nya. Ganun naman sya lagi. Sa aming apat ay Dos ang parang bata umakto.

"So, how have you been Tres?" Naku tong isang to. I pour myself a drink. Mukhang maaga kaming lahat maglalasing ngayon.

"Nothing much Gin. Same old,same old. " He looked at me with a forced smile. Bakit parang hindi ganun ang nararamdaman ko? Kagaya ko'y alam kong sobrang naapektuhan si Tres pagtapos ng gabing iyon.

"Are you done checking me out Tres?" Hahaha natatawa ko sya tinukso. And he blushed. He was looking at me intently from head to toe at alam kong hindi sya makapaniwala sa ayos ko ngayon.

I'm wearing a sexy black halter dress and a stiletto. May iilan na rin akong tattoo sa iba't-ibang parte ng katawan ko and I changed my hair style from black straight waist length to fiery red bob cut.
Sabi nila'y parang anghel ang hitsura. I was very shy and timid pero ngayon I changed completely after all those years.

"You're still beautiful ever Gin but I can see the changes in you. I like your innocent Gin-nie look better." His voice sounds so different. Malayo na sya sa mundo noon pa man ngunit ngayon it feels like he created a complete different world inside him.

"Gin akyat tayo sa taas sa room mo." Si Uno, tapos na pala syang ibaba ng mga gamit ko. "Tres, wag kang sasagad. Mag-papahinga lang si Tres and we'll go out tonight." Akala ko pa naman maglalasing agad kami. Pero okay narin, I'm so exhausted from my flight.

Pagdating sa room ko ay agad akong humiga sa aking kama. "Gin don't you want to take a shower first?"

"I'm fine Uno, go to your room and rest. I know you're tired too." Damn I feel so lazy to take a shower. Sobra akong napagod sa byahe. "Wake me up pag aalis na tayo." And I fell asleep right away.

"Ili-ili tulog anay wala diri imo nanay, kadto tienda bakal papa, ili-ili tulog anay"

Bang!!!

Ha? Ano yun? Dali-dali akong lumabas ng kwarto ng marinig ko ang putok ng baril. Anong nangyayari?

"Tyson? Ma? Pa?" Paulit-ulit ko silang tinatawag, bakit walang sumasagot?
Pag-bukas ko sa pintuan ng master's bedroom ay, "aaaaaaahhhhh anong nangyare?"

Dugo. Puro dugo! "Ty---agh. S-sino kayo.?"

Napabalikwas ako ng bangon. I looked around me and realized nasa Pinas na ko pala ulit.
Damn. It's the same nightmare from that night again. I grabbed my phone and dialed his number,

"Spade, I'm back. Yes. I'm in the lion's den. Copy. See you tommorrow."

To hell be with you all.