Lost? ~ Oikawa x Iwaizumi ~ Haikyuu

IWAIZUMI P.O.V

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I decided that I did want to put the last part up on here so~

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IWAIZUMI P.O.V

Iwaizumi sat in one of the uncomfortable hospital chairs with his head down low. He hadn't told any of the people from the volleyball club yet. He didn't want to say something till he knew for sure...

What felt like another eternity later the doctor came out of the room. He looked down at Iwaizumi and slowly spoke.

"He's alive for now, but we can't promise anything for the next few days. It's up to his own body and will now. For all we know he can die tomorrow." The doctor spoke bluntly but Iwaizumi guessed they got used to it. Breaking people down, telling them someone they loved was long gone and dead or his case almost dead. He could feel the doctor's eyes on him but he continued to look down at the floor, tears dripping off of his face. "You can go in and see him now." the doctor said with a sigh then he walked away. Iwaizumi got up and slowly forced his legs to Oikawa's hospital room. Once inside the room he broke again. What had been lowered to a few small tear drops became a flow again. Seeing that body barely moving much less breathing would be forever embedded into his mind. Forcing himself to move again was pain but his legs would give out if he didnt. Iwaizumi moved to the window and sat on the ledge looking out at the clear sky. Seeing the stars shining brightly automatically made him think of Oikawa. Everything led back to that almost lifeless corpse 10 feet away from him. He shook himself and pulled out Oikawa's phone from his pocket. Surely there must be a reason and he thought that his phone would be the answer. He clicked the phone on and went to the notes section and scrolled through all of the note tabs. While scrolling he started to think that this was going to be hopeless then one caught his eye. The title of the note read "Lost?". Iwaizumi inhaled and prepared himself for what might be waiting then opened the note.

—I wonder what Iwaizumi really thinks of me these days. I remember the nights we used to spend as kids. Looking at the stars and not having any care in the world but that's changed now. Feelings are far too complicated but every time i look at him i feel something different. Do I like him? Is that a question I should be asking myself. He would think I'm disgusting. What am I thinking? I really am lost amidst all these emotions.

—I really am disgusting trash. Ha. I couldn't even talk to him today. How can I ever think that I'd be good enough for him?

— I've had enough of trying to hold emotions in. I've given in to the drugs and razors. There's no coming back from this and there is definitely no way I can tell Iwaizumi how I actually feel now. I'm drowning myself In multicolored capsules and blood stained towels. If I ever had a chance with him then that chance is gone.

— Today I have decided. My presence is no longer needed here. Tomorrow I'll say goodbye to the people I know. Tomorrow I'll say goodbye to the stars then I'll become one.

Iwaizumi dropped the phone. It seemed to fall in slow motion then finally hit the ground and shattered. Breaking the crippling silence. This was far from what he expected. He felt sick. How could he have not noticed any of this. From 10 feet away he heard a soft groan. Iwaizumi rushed over to Oikawa's bedside. His eyes were slightly open. Open enough to see the tears tainted face of Iwaizumi looking down at him. Oikawa smiled up at him weakly. "S-s I see... I'm still h-here." Iwaizumi just looked down at him unable to speak. "W-what's with t-that face..." spoke Oikawa again.

Iwaizumi finally found his voice. "YOU ARE SO STUPID. YOU COULD HAVE TOLD ME. WHY WOULD I HAVE THOUGHT THAT YOU WERE DISGUSTING. DID I ONCE SAY THAT I COULDN'T LIKE GUYS. Did I once say I couldn't like you....?" He tried to scream the entirety of what he wanted to say but his voice broke too fast. Oikawa's eyes widened and small tears started to trail down his face. "S-so you k-k-know t-then...". Iwaizumi realized that his voice was becoming weaker and softer. He couldn't have much time left. Iwaizumi reached his hand out and grasped Oikawa's. "Please don't leave me here alone....please Oikawa" Iwaizumi said slowly. Oikawa gripped Iwaizumi's hand. "H-hey I-Iwaizumi... I-I've been meaning t-to tell y-you something..." Oikawa focused his eyes on Iwaizumi's face. "I-I'm sorry b-but I-I love y-you." Iwaizumi's tears fell onto Oikawa's face as he shakily said back "I-I love you too you stupid fool." Oikawa smiled with the last of his energy. "I'm glad..."

Flatline.

The sound rang through his head and threatened to shatter his eardrums. He fell to the ground. It was over. All over now.

Oikawa had become a star... just like he had wished for.

idk something is wrong with my wattpad and it didnt publish this or something

idk

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