Nice & Spice

Chapter 3

"I think I'm pregnant."
Lauren dropped her fork on her plate and stared at me in disbelief. "What?"
"I don't know. I just have a feeling."
"Did you miss a period?"
"No." I replied quietly.
"Well, who's the dad?"
"You've never met him. A one night stand about two months ago." I told her, trying to be convincing.
"You need to tell-"
"I don't want a baby right now!" I interrupted. "I can't. There's no way I can have a kid."
"You should still tell him." She assured me.
"Yeah I know." I sighed in defeat.

Fuck. How do I tell Liam that I may be having a baby? How do I tell him that if I am, it's his? Shit. How do I tell him I don't want it?

Liam sat on the edge of my bed. "So talk then. What's up?"

I finished locking my door and slowly turned to face him. Except I couldn't. I couldn't face him. Which is why I diverted my eyes to the ceiling. "Oh, fuck!" I quietly swore to myself under my breath. Liam obviously heard me as his eyebrows raised before he narrowed his eyes at me.

I walked over to my bed and sat right up against the headboard. He didn't look at me though. Just sat staring at the door where I was once stood. "What's this about? Is everything ok?" He asked me before looking straight into my eyes.

As soon as they met mine, I looked away. Just fucking say it Alaia! 1... 2... 3...
"I think... Oh fucking hell. I could be... you know..."
"What?" I turn to look at him. He looks so confused but I feel so guilty. I don't want to tell him because I don't know how to feel.
"Pregnant. I think I might be pregnant." His expression didn't change so I quickly followed with, "Before you say anything, I don't want it. If I am, I want to go with that option." I started, feeling myself starting to tear up.
"What do you mean by 'that option'?" I could tell he was starting to get pissed. "You want to abort our fucking baby?" He hissed, careful to be quiet so our friends in the kitchen couldn't hear.
"I don't know what I want to do." I cried. "I'm going to the doctor tomorrow to find out for sure."
"Fuck this!" He stood up and unlocked my door and stormed to the kitchen. "I'm going out. Don't come looking for me." He told our friends before slamming the front door shut.

Lauren came into my bedroom and looked at me in concern. "What was that about?" I shook my head and pulled the covers over my face, sighing. I was asleep within minutes.

"When was your last period?" The doctor asked me with a smile.
"I missed one about a month ago but, about a week ago I bled a lot. I just have this hunch you know."
The doctors smile fell a bit. "We'll run some tests and we'll have a look on the ultrasound for you." He smile lifted a bit. I could tell something was off.

My heart fell to my stomach.
"I'm guessing that period you had a week ago wasn't a period but just your body flushing it out. I'm so sorry. We have some flyers in the hall I would recommend you grab. There's also a number for you to call if you need someone to talk to. Again, I'm so sorry." He looked at me before patting my shoulder and leaving the room.
Before he opened the door, I stopped him. Still in shock, I asked, "How far along was I before... it happened?"
"About 10 weeks I would guess." He gave me a brief smile that told me he felt sorry for me.

I couldn't wait to get home and crawl into bed.
Lauren was stood by the stove stirring something and Jace was sat at the kitchen table. "How did it go?" My best friend asked.
"How did what go?" Jace wondered.
I ignored them both, slammed the front door and ran to my bedroom before crawling under my bed covers and let the tears silently roll down my face.
Lauren came in after me and asked my back what was wrong to which I pretended she wasn't there.

I woke to Liam climbing into bed and facing me. I ignored his presence and shut my eyes again. He poked my cheek and asked what was wrong. "What's up? Why are you upset?"
I shook my head and tried my absolute hardest to fall back into my blissful sleep I had been woken from moments ago.
"Did something happen?" He waited. "Laia. Answer me." A few seconds ticked by. He rolled onto his back, facing the ceiling he let out a sigh. "For fuck sake Alaia. Tell me what's wrong or I'll leave. I can't put up with this shit."
I turned over so my back was to him and I was facing the door, silently telling him to be my guest and show himself out.
However, he moved behind me so he could spoon me and blew a frustrated sigh into my hair.
After a few minutes he spoke. "Shit. You had the scan today. How did it go?"

I moved my head so my face was buried in the pillow before I started hysterically crying. Liam pulled me over so he could look at me. "Did you actually get rid of it? Oh my god. I can't believe you. Why would you do that without talking to me first?!"
"I didn't get rid of it." I croaked. My voice straining as I hadn't spoken in what felt like three years.
"I lost it! I miscarried last week! I didn't even realise! He said I struggled to carry it long term. He said I may never be able to carry a baby long term. What the fuck? I don't get it." I cried. Hyperventilating with tears streaming down my face.
He bought my head to his chest and squeezed me tight.
"Shit. Fuck. I didn't mean what I said. I'm sorry Lai. What can I do?"
My crying continued for hours. I didn't say anything to him. He didn't say anything to me. At one point, i think he started crying as well. It wasn't before long that I fell asleep.

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