Out

Regrets

"I-Im gay, and I like you, michael. Not just as friends"

His eyes light up for a split second.
But he suddenly discards my hand from his shoulder roughly.

"No luke. This isn't right. I really don't want to be your friend anymore if you're gay. I don't like gay people. Its disgusting and stupid. Please do not talk to me ever again"

He slammed the door and left.

There I stood, my eyes watering as a tear falls down to my cheek. How could he? I was feeling a connection hoping he would understand me. He just turned out to be another homophobic dude that I got rejected from.
I walked towards my bed grabbing a pillow and sobbed.

An hour later my mom comes in.
"What was that all about?" She asks sitting on the corner of my bed.
"What?" I ask
"Your friend Michael slammed the door and left" she says.
"Oh. He was mad because his mom made him go home. We were um having, fun" I say.
"If you say so" she says leaving my room.

The next morning I was worried.
What if he told everyone? Would he bully me? I really didn't know what to do. I had no choice but to talk to Calum before he did. Today I just grabbed my red flannel and the usual, black jeans, black shoes.

I got to school and I saw Michael walking into the school. "Holy shit" I say. There I stood staring at Michaels new electric blue hair.

I felt someone tap me unexpectedly.

"Hey Luke" says calum.

"I need to talk to you" I say pulling on his sleeve taking him somewhere quite.
"What's wrong?" He says.
"Ok um. This is really awkward but yesterday Michael went to my house and we were playing video games and stuff. Before he left to go home I told him I was gay and I told him that I liked him. Michael yelled at me and said that he hated gay people and he said that he never wanted to talk to me again." I said running out of breath.

"Wait. Y-you're gay?" Calum asked me.

"Well, yes" I say.

"Wow. Look, I have no idea why Michael acted like that. Well Actually he's gay as well, and I see no reason why he had to say those mercenary things to you" he says.

"You're kidding" I say.
"Not at all" he says.
"Sit with me at lunch. Michael has guitar practice on Monday's" he says.
"Okay sure"

In homeroom Michael never turned around to look at me, Not even a quick glance.

I walked to history class and stared at Michael the whole time. The teacher called on me. He saw me looking at Michaels hair, "please stop staring at Michaels hair I know it's distracting but concentrate. We will have a test on this next week luke"
Well great. Now everyone thinks I'm a freak. "Lucas. Do I need to move you?" The teacher says 10 minutes later. "It's luke" I say. "Luke, Lucas, Lukey. Whatever" the teacher says finishing writing on the board.

It's lunchtime and I walk over to Calum.
"So where am I going to sit the whole school year" I ask
"I've got a plan don't worry" Calum says smirking. I grab my tacky food and walk to an empty table with Calum. "Can you talk to me about this plan" I ask. "No. It's a secret" he says. We ate silently, after 3 minutes Calum asked "Wanna come over to my house after school? I got Fifa yesterday and I want to play it with someone"
"Yeah sure" I say.

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I walk in the rain to calums house stepping in puddles and getting my shoes and jeans wet.

*michael pov*

"I'm bored, when's the pizza guy coming" I ask Calum

"He must be here any minute, I called him before you came" he says.

After waiting for minutes which seemed like hours finally I heard someone knock the door.

"I think he's here" I say then dance like a ballerina.

"What the fuck are you doing michael" Calum says chuckling

"HAVE YOU EVER HEARD OF DANCING CALUM?"

"Whatever. Go get the pizza dude" he says. "Ok fine" I say.

I walk Downstairs and open the door.

*lukes pov*

Oh shit

"What exactly are you doing here?" Michael says. I push Michael aside and I walk inside soaking wet.
"CALUM" I yell "YOU CANT JUST PUSH ME LIKE THAT" Michael says.
"LUKE! You're finally here!" Says Calum.
"What's this all about" Michael asks from behind me.
"Good thing moms not home" Calum mumbles. "Come upstairs guys we need to talk" he says.
Michael walks behind me and trips me, he walks over me and I pull his leg making him fall over as well. "Faggot" I whisper.