Wormtail's Journey

Chapter 1

July 31st 1980

Peter was running. Running like a maniac. He was late. He stepped into the building of the Hospital Wing. He ran among witches, wizards, healers. Then he got into the waiting room where Marlene and Dorcas were seated, chatting and drinking tea. Before he could say hello, Marly spoke.

"There waiting for you" she said pointing to a room.

Peter smiled to her. He stopped running and his pulse was high. He came into the room.

"Sorry long day at work"

The first one he saw was Lily sitting in bed. She looked tired but really happy. Next to her were Moony and Padfoot. They were talking and laughing at something. And on the other side was Prongs, with his new born in arms. He was smiling but Peter could tell he had been crying.

"Hey Wormy" said Sirius "we were wondering where you were?"

But Peter ignored him looking to Prongs.

"You just had baby" he said "Bloody hell! Prongs you are a father. And Lily, your a mother... Blo...bloody hell!"

Peter couldn't believe it still. The young couple smiled at him. "Congratulations"

"Thanks Wormy" James said coming towards him

"Meet Harry" Peter looked at the baby. He was so tiny. His eyes were closed.

"And you missed it for being late, I'm Harry's godfather, by the way" said Sirius with a smile on his face.

"Do you have to brag about it all the time?" said Remus smirking.

"Don't be jelaous Moons" Sirius said kissing his boyfriend on the cheek. Remus rolled his eyes.

Peter was smiling. He was really happy. "Do you want to hold him?" asked James

"Oh no!" he responded. He was afraid of dropping the baby or something.

"No, no"

"C'mon Wormy"

"No Prongs" but James was already placing Harry into Peter's arms. He was not heavy. And the feeling was incredible. But Peter stood static.

"Aaww, Prongs he looks like you" he said. He had a knot on his throat for some reason.

"No! my baby is better looking" Lily said with a sleepy voice.They all laughed at that.

"I love you too baby" James said smiling. He leaned and gave her a kiss on her forehead.

Peter contemplated the baby on his arms. He couldn't take it anymore and tears ran down his face.

"Hi, Harry" he said "It's your uncle Wormy" and with tears on his eyes, Peter kissed the baby.

November 1980

Marlene Mackinnon was a beautiful girl. Blond, long hair, green eyes. And that smile that could make you instantly feel better. That's all that Peter saw in her picture. But she was gone. Watching at her picture laughing at something, really hurt. Peter was sitting up front. He only stared at her picture. Not her body. He wasn't ready to see her like that.

"She was beautiful, wasn't she?"

A boy sat next to Peter. The one that he recognized as Marly's brother. Adam. He was four years younger but they got along pretty well. Peter smiled at him.

"Yeah, she was"

"It's not fair" Adam said. He was really angry

"I'm gonna revenge her death. Those bloody deatheaters are gonna pay. I promise" he clenched his teeth.

Peter looked at him. He was too young to be this angry.

"Adam!" Mr. and Mrs. McKinnon were on the other side of the room. Adam's mother was calling him. He smiled at Peter and went to his family.

Peter had tears on his eyes again. He looked across the room and he spotted Dorcas. She was holding onto the table. She must've been having the worst time. Marly was her best friend. Peter stood up and went next her.

"Dorki" he said putting a hand on her shoulder. She raised her head. She looked miserable.

"The last time I saw her...I...I kissed her" she said looking at Peter carefully "I never told her how I felt though" she sniffed "She said we should talk about it. And now I'll never know how she felt"

"You know she loved you, right?"

"No she loved you, Peter. You were her best friend"

"She loved us both" Dorcas smiled and hugged Peter. She started crying on his shoulder.

"I'm sorry" she said. Peter didn't know what she was apologizing for but he said "It's okay"

They all went back to the Potters. Nobody was ready to be alone. They sat in the living room. Lily said she was gonna take Harry upstairs. She had been crying a lot, she must've been tired. They all sat in silence. Sirius was drinking again. He always did. Suddenly Peter didn't feel well. He stood up and went to the kitchen. He had no oxygen in his lungs and he was having a hard time breathing. His chest was hurting so badly.

"Peter..." he heared Monny's voice "Are you okay?"

Peter started breathing fast leaning against the counter.

"Leave me alone" he said.

It was so painful. He'd been holding it together but now all was sinking in. He will never see Marly again. She was gone, she was death. Peter could see Sirius and James entering as well.

"It hurts so badly" he said crying again.

"We know Pete" said James carefully.

Remus tried to approach him but Peter moved away. He needed oxygen for Merlin's's sake.

"No, no" said Peter "you didn't know her" he covered his face with his hands "you didn't know her like I did"

"Pete" Remus put his hand on Peter's shoulder.

"No!" he pushed Remus away "Don't touch me. You don't care" he said looking at the three of them "None of you care"

His three friends looked at him with concern.

"It's always been Moony's problem, or James' crush on Lily, or your stupid parents, Sirius. But nothing is about me! She was the only one who cared about me"

Peter didn't know were this all was coming from but he was in a rage. He couldn't stop talking

"You don't give a shit about me"

"Shut up Pettigrew, you know that's not fair" Sirius said angrily. Sirius was always angry, but it was Peter's turn.

"YOU'RE NOT FAIR SIRIUS!" Peter yelled

"When she had a crush on you, you treated her like shit!"

"I'm bloody gay Peter" said Sirius. He was looking for his wand. That was the way Sirius managed things.

"Sirius" whispered Remus. He always calmed him down.

"I DON'T BLOODY CARE" shouted Peter

"YOU ARE ACTING LIKE A FUCKING CHILD" responded Sirius.

"Honestly lads stop it" James was stoping Sirius from hurting Peter.

"I'm so sick you Sirius" Peter said "Of all of you"

Sirius was furious. James was in shock and Remus had a sad expression.

"Leave me alone" said Peter leaving the kitchen.

"Peter" Remus was going after him but James stopped him.

"Let him go"