finn?

a world without you in it

Hello Fiinnnnn! Today marks the 3rd month of our relationship-- YAY! I like how we write long messages for each other every month, it's like writing a letter in the old times and having to wait for so long to receive it. 

Anyways, I know you've always been so busy but I really hope that you're not forgetting to take care of yourself too! I wish that I'm there doing school works or anything with you, but I've thought about it-- we could be doing that right now! 

We might be doing the same things too and we just don't know it. I like to just imagine that when I'm doing works or sewing, you're there doing your own thing too or maybe I could help you out with your works too, and then every time I try out the thing that I've been sewing, I feel so proud like as if I'm showing it to you too! And when I got to bed, I'd leave a space which I don't know why-- But now I always think that it's for you! 

Ah, the title! I thought about it. What would life be if I haven't met you? It would be a pretty sad topic but I want to be more honest with you. 

I actually don't think I'd make it this far if I hadn't met you;; 

So I'm really grateful! That I'm still here! If I hadn't met you, I don't think I would be able to meet my current friends too. If I'll ever be asked, 'What's your turning point in life?' I'd say you're one of the reasons. So, thank you. 

If we hadn't been friends before, I wouldn't know how to talk to one,, or even have courage to do the things I want to. You made me feel confident, and allow to express out my feelings when I needed to, or be able to talk to someone about the things that I like-- You gave me friendship, trust, and courage! Oh and how could I forget? LOVEEEEEE (sorry-)

You help me shape out the people that I want to be surrounded with and for that I made a little group that I finally... love to be involved in, and that's all thanks to you! Oh,, and I guess that's the reason why I want you to meet all of them cause you helped me find people like them! Everything felt like at ease ever since we met, the times that I'm sad or mad or lonely, it would all disappear since I got you and my friends with me. 

If I've never met you before,, I honestly wouldn't be able to know how to show expressions or feelings,, And I always felt true joy.

aaaaA I feel like that guy from the anime, "Orange" asfjafe (It's a good anime, I don't know if you've watched it yet o_o)

Finn!

Thank!

You!!

If we ever drift away, I wouldn't dare to forget you. These past 4 years with you, I'll forever treasure it with me! It doesn't matter even if we never meet physically, you affected me greatly mentally! That's what's more important.

But if we ever really meet in real life, even if we have to wait for years, I'm still going to be the same person you met online four years ago-- no wait, I'm going to be the same person that you help grew! :D

Ah also, please!

Please hold onto your ribbon 'til we meet!

I promise to take care of my side of the ribbon, please do so too!! 

(To future Finn and Lene reading this, I'm referencing this from the anime that Finn recommended!! 'Doukyuusei' -Please watch it if you're finally together +_+ I feel like a kid writing these ;-; sorry, Future Lene-- If ever you've matured out of this typing style HAHAHA)

Finn!! By the way! I wanted to ask you this but I keep on forgetting;; The time you asked me to be your girlfriend, you said something like 'meeting my parents' first right? IF THAT'S TRUE- AaA I'll hAVE TO BE A GOOD CHILD TO THEM FIRST BEFORE YOU CAN MEET THEM CAUSE THEY MIGHT SNITCH ON ME >;O ok thank u

I'm sorry that we didn't do that before we became a couple though;; We can just come up with a plan when it's time for us to tell them! Since they're going to be a huge part for us to meet anyways :'O

AaAAA ANYWAYS, THIS STARTED AS A SERIOUS LOVE LETTER-- HOW DID IT END UP LIKE THIS ??? I GOT CARRIED AWAY SORRYYYYY  AAAAAAAAAAaAa

I wonder what you're going to do on our third monthsary though :o you always come up with something so cool,,  I couldn't wait for the 20th every month hdbjhfbej I'm going to try and write something serious now wait--

Finn.

aAAAAAAAAaAa I'm just writing what's on my mind ;o; but head empy, only finn inside.

This is what's been going on inside my head too while writing all of these:

Cause it's true,, I think you're really cool and I like you a lot,, maybe we could uhh hang on the rooftop and star gaze or uh do cloud watching o_o I'll check the weather though, I'll make sure it's clear.

Let's try and guess the shape of the clouds as many that we can spot! We get points if we guess the same thing!

I just thought of something :O

Finnick = Phoenix = cool???? o_o 

I think that you're a phoenix! And I mean it in a positive way, despite everything, you rise up and try again. You're as cool as how they sound like too *-*

I feel like I've said word "cool" so many times shfajhfe gomen finn u_u

I'm going to end this on a better note!

Thank you for the four years and I love you uH as a friend *cat smirking emoji* and please stay safe,, >:O or else we'll be forever enemies. okluvyou sunshineaAAa muah