The End Of The Road

The Recovery

Her : I need u to start thinking positive cos what u keep on saying will happen.

I shook my head in tears

Me : I can't shower can I pls have my clothes

Her : but babe

Me : mom noo

I took my pj's and wore them.

We went downstairs to eat.

We sat on the table and dinner was served.

I checked one of my notifications and all I could see was the sorries and all rubbish until I saw "19 year old raped by 4 guys video of cruelty"

My eyes popped out.

Ntokzin : are u ok?

Me : huh

Him : u good?

Me : yea.. Guys I'm going to the bathroom BRB

Mom : ok love, is everything fine though?

I ran upstairs to my bathroom.

I really didn't want to but I opened the notification.

The video started by a woman in the news "the world is changing in cruel ways, a young innocent lady was raped by four big guys. The girl cuffed couldn't fight the guys at all, let us look at the video"

My heart started pounding.

When the video played and I heard myself screaming fighting for freedom hurt me.

I immediately switched my phone off and started crying.

Someone knocked at my door and opened without response.

Me : what if I was pooping?

Nto : it's good u not, but legit bruh are u watching the video?

Me : no I'm not

Nto : I'm not a fool

Me : you tripping

Nto : no I'm not

Me : yes u are dude

He looked at me with a serious face.

Him : ntombi I'm not a fool, are u watching the stupid video

Me : ok fine

Him : u were

Me : yes (sniff)

Him : and why exactly?

I sighed not knowing the explanation.

Him : do u want to heal?

Me : I do

Him : then this is not the way

Me : ok

Him : ntombi I need u to stop thinking about this and worse u even watch the video?

Me : it's not easy

Him : I know and I swear I can't relate but I know this is just not the way, but I can help

Me : how

Him : we need to keep u busy so u too busy to think about this.

I raised my shoulders and put them down again.

Him : but right now u need a rest.

Me : ok thanks

Him : it's fine anything for my little sister