Reluctant
When I an creating something
I always try to make it perfect
Everything has to be perfect
So I can cover up all the imperfections I have
Maybe one day I will be as perfect as him
Maybe one day when I am not reluctant
I will smile at his face and with perfect grace look him in the eyes
And kiss him
Maybe one day I guess
One day when I'm not too much of a perfectionist
Imperfection is the only way it would actually be a memory
And imperfection lasts
-troye 1/12/15
Today
I'm seeing him today
I guess I don't have to tell you who
But he makes me smile
And his blue eyes make me feel like I could stay quite a while
Although I get sad sometimes when the sky's are gray
I just think and remember his eyes and I know it all will be better someday
But then I remember that love is a gun
I don't want to shoot myself
I don't want to shoot anyone
But maybe if he pulls the trigger
Maybe I won't be to blame when I'm dead quicker
Maybe he won't shoot
Maybe this is just a hopeless crush
Maybe all this poetry does not mean enough
When I will fall, no clue
Its inevitable, I know
Maybe we both have a hole in our hearts
From a different bullet,
Different scars
Maybe we can heal those wounds
And turn away the gun
And live happily forever
Until our time on earth is done
But I know that won't happen
For I have been shot
And he, has not.
-connor 1/12/15
