The Proposal [18+]

Chapter 4 - "Decisions make a busy night..."

    I was standing in front of the luxurious, white doors with huge, golden lion's head in the middle of the night, drenched, ready to knock. How did I come here, you wonder? Let me rewind back a bit;

Few hours earlier I was walking on the campus ground, gazing at the starry sky, searching for answer. And when I didn't find it, I felt lost. It was such a big decision to make, the one that changes your life, forever.

I sat down with a sigh, leaning on the rough bark of the huge oak tree. I bit down my lip, trying to think of the advantages and disadvantages that would come with making this deal. One of the disadvantages is that they are filthy rich and I've always felt uncomfortable with the rich people. They would probably want to pay for everything, and for some unknown reason, I've always felt awkward when someone tried to pay for me. I can't stand it. From what I hear about him, Luca is probably used to controlling everything in his life and wouldn't give up control that easily. I like having control; I can't relax unless I know everything is going on as planned. He'd want me to act, dress and eat certain way and I can't change for anyone, especially not a man. No matter how attractive he really is. They also wouldn't be very understanding of my money problem.

On the other side; they don't seem like the snobby rich people you would expect them to be with the amount of money they have. They wouldn't expect of me to work and would be understanding when I have to study for my exams, giving me some space. It's not that big of an age difference so I wouldn't have a hard time explaining what young people love to do. Also, it would be about the damn time for me to take some risks. I've always lived in fear of failure; I didn't want to try too hard so my disappointment wouldn't be too great.

And most of all, I think I have already started to feel something towards them. I'm not stupid, I know it's not love, but I can't help but think of them highly. The only time I saw him was when I bumped into them and I spent only one night with her, talking. She was so nice, so very full of understanding.

All of a sudden, I shot straight up, getting from the ground. I started running to my dorm, afraid that I would change my mind if I don't get there fast enough. I got to my room, not surprised when I saw Jason still on the floor, snoring and hugging my blanket to his chest and drooling on it. I made a face in his way, muttering softly to myself. "That's so disgusting!"

"Okay big boy, it's time to wake up," I murmur softly, shaking him violently. He'd never wake up if you do it gently. I leaned to his ear, already annoyed. "Wake up, you damn idiot!" I yelled in his ear, probably making him go deaf.

He jumped, knocking his head on mine in the process, screaming like a scared little girl. I smiled in victory despite of the shooting pain I was feeling in my head. I gingerly touched the bruise I could already feel forming in the middle of my forehead. Knowing that I made him scream like the devil himself was chasing him was more than enough to dull my pain.

He looked at me and, red-faced and angry-eyed, and I could practically see the smoke coming from his ears. The look on his face made me crack my not-so-rock-hard-façade and laugh from the pit of my stomach.

"You. Should have..." I stopped to regain my breathing, "Seen the look on your face." I took a deep breath and resumed to laugh at his stunned expression. He huffed indignantly and crossed his arms on his chest, "It was just a... a... a nightmare," he muttered unconvincingly. "Didn't anyone tell you not to sneak up on someone while sleeping?"

"And, and the scream you made," I giggled, "like a little girl." I coughed, trying to cover my laugh.

"No, it wasn't. I had a nightmare," he shouted exasperatedly. "I already told you that." He stood up and put his arms on the hips to make a point, making my blanket fall off of him. He looked down, blush covering his face.