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When does it stop, when does it have an ending. Why did you think that was okay, why did you lie. You loved me, you always said you loved me, now I question it did you ever really love me. Does this have an ending because the memory of you seems to just replay in my head like a melody. I look at your memory made for you at the cemetery, but there's no body in that grave. I remember the life that you loved and lived to the fullest yet that night you left it all behind, you said it would be better this way.
IN WHAT FUCKING WAY IS IT BETTER! I GO NIGHTS WITHOUT SLEEP, I WENT DAYS WITHOUT EATING! You left saying it would be better saying it's for safety, but what's better and who's safety. I am just as close to doing as you did, I jump into that bridge and leaving someone else the trauma because you left me yours. Your hand on my wrist made me feel a better than I ever felt because you were real you were something I was imagining, you were actually here. Then it all went away I felt pain I felt anger but I didn't feel love for you anymore.
"Choice there was a choice?" I pulled my wrist out of your grip as you looked down at the floor, "Yes but it was never mine to make." I rolled my eyes I always said I loved her and I will continue to love her but at this moment the love I had doesn't exist. "You made my life hell you left by jumping off that bridge you moved away and all along you have been alive!" I stepped closer as she flinched to my voice, "Taehyung it was never meant to be like this." I shook my head. "Yeah because I was never supposed to find out you were alive. How long have you been in Korea?" She immediately looked down and I laughed in disbelief, "I left for two years I came back six years ago." I shook my head again and stepped away from her.
"Don't ever cross paths with me again, and don't sign the contract with this company." She went to reach for me and I stepped away as she fell to the floor tripping over herself and I watched sit there while she held her ankle, she looked up with her eyes filled with tears I gave her a laughed and walked away.
(8years ago)
I saw her standing on the railing as i ran over there, "Did you know we tend to fall in love with the people we can't have?" She whispered to were I can hear her, she looked back at me and in this terrifying moment she looked beautiful under the moon and city lights combined. "And I fell in love with you, that's why I can't have you." She turned around fulling as now she was facing me and no longer the water, "We reach this point in life we're we chose who to love and who to spend the rest of our life's with and we're not that far from choosing." I felt the pain in my heart as I knew what would happen but I kept denying it.
"And I say who to love and who we spend our life with separate because in reality we let the ones we love go because we thinks it's for the best, and then we choose a separate person to love but not really love for the rest of our life's." Her soft voice moved with the cold wind as she spoke with pure pain and pure love.
"I'm choosing you, so please get down from there." She shook her head and looked down, "I can't do that, I can't let you choose me at all Taehyung." Her voice spilling my name as it sound like a pure melody of pain. "Fine, we can leave each other but please just get down from there." She shook her head and looked back up at me letting out a sob, "I love you Taehyung." My eyes held tears as I waited for the right moment to reach her.
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The conversation before she jumped played in my head as I felt myself getting weaker as I walked away, I felt my body fall to the floor and her voice echoed through the building as she yelled my name. I watched her as she cried while she spoke to me with a muffled voice, I felt the pain she gave me that night all over again.
Does it ever stop.
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Falling out (Taehyung×Reader)
FanfictionIt's about loving each other once again knowing we wouldn't work but we still tried anyways. It's about our trauma and past. Yet mainly its about our love.
