In your arms || dreamnotfound

Painless love

                                                                       Clay
I'd told George about how hard it is to find a man like him, and how many toxic relationships I've been in. Throughout high school every other week a new girl would ask him out. He never knew how to say he wasn't interested, he couldn't trust them to not tell the whole school he was gay. George had only knew he was gay for 2 months before they started dating. Once I came out to myself having secret boyfriends was pretty easy, until he met Daniel.
Daniel was pretty average, fairly good looking. But clay didn't care about looks, as long as they had a good personality. Daniel was nice, he was handsome, had good style. He was practically perfect, until they actually started dating.
(Tw abuse!)
Daniel forced clay into things he wasn't comfortable with, they had been together for two days when Daniel attempted to shower with clay. Clay managed to keep him away by locking the door, that didn't mean he was being peaceful. After 1 week of dating Daniel sexually abused clay, he had the strangest kinks. He would kiss clay, which soon turned into making out, clay was okay with this. He quickly lifted off clays shirt, clay told him he was going too far.
"Dan Stop, Dan please I'm not ready. Please! Please just stop!"
"Give me what I want you bastard."
You can imagine what happened next, he didn't sleep that night, clay just sat there and cried.
Is this what it's supposed to be like?
Over the next few days it continued, Clay was at his lowest. He eventually gave up and let Daniel do these things to him. If clay didn't go along with his kinks, he was "punished". That was always the same, slammed against the wall, begging for mercy. It never worked, he would proceed to punch at him until he gave in.
And then he met George. The two were inseparable, they met online and became best friends, but you already know that story. When they first started dating they spent all their time together. Clay was terrified, it was inevitable. He told george about how he was abused, George promised to never do that to him. Clay couldn't help but have uncontrollable anxiety for the first month, but eventually he was very comfortable with George. He felt safe with him, he would calm him whenever he was having a panic attack, he knew exactly what to do when he was upset. His sweet scent, smaller figure and soft touch added to the safe atmosphere around him. Soon enough he felt no anxiety towards George, he knew he was a good guy. After a couple months he finally worked up the courage to kiss him, but he didn't force him into anything. There was nothing more than a sweet kiss. And that's when he knew George was the one for him.

487 words holy shat my fingers hurt...