Bully [Park Jisung ff]

Chapter 16

We laid there for what seemed like hours until Jisung asked me a question.

"Eunji how do you confess to someone?"

"Confess about what? Love or"

"Love"

"Well, you ask to meet up with them at a specific place that is quiet who knows if they reject you you don't have to be embarrassed. Once they get there you can tell them that you love them"

"But what if its too awkward"

"Just say that you needed to get it out of your chest no matter the response after confessing"

"Ok"

"But please don't take it too seriously though I haven't had a boyfriend before and I feel like you have more experience than I do"

"I might have had a few girls here and there but believe they were just using me for money and never really loved me in a serious way"

"That must've hurted"

"Yup it hurted but whatever you know. How about you?"

"What about me?"

"Have you ever fallen in love?"

"Not really"

"Really?"

"Maybe once or twice but it wasn't serious, just puppy love you know"

"Eun have you ever experienced heartbreak?"

"About a guy no, but about my parents yes totally my largest heartbreak. I guess that's why I haven't really loved someone or dated anyone"

"I don't know if it will make you feel better but as cringey as it is I'm here for you. I mean I don't know if its comparable to your loss but I lost my dad"

"I'm sorry"

"You don't need to be sorry, to be honest I don't really feel too sad about it considering how bad he treated us but of course he's still my dad and I still love him"

"You know you're just a big softie and thats what I like about you. I mean you want to shower everyone with love but you just can't do it right because-"

"I don't have a family that loves me enough"

"No, they love you, your dad's the problem you still loved him regardless of what he did and all that trauma made you feel like you need to hate everyone so that you didn't look breakable and believe me I do that too"

"Why can't he just love us?"

I sat up and pulled him up with me, I made him face me and I hugged him.

"You know what Jisung who can just let it out. Let out all your emotions and don't hesitate. Its ok to cry, it just proves that you've been strong for too long and need a break. I'm here and I will wait for you I promise"

I heard sniffles and I felt my clothes getting damp because of Jisung's tears. We stayed in the position for a few minutes until I felt him hugging me back as he snuggled into the crook of my neck. He must feel tired I changed my position as I stood up and piggy-backed him back to my place.

Once we arrived, I went to my bedroom and set him down on my bed as I went to change to something more comfortable. I sat on the bed beside Jisung as I stroke his hair and wiped his tear stained cheeks. 

I ordered us some lunch and waited downstairs leaving Jisung alone. Once the food arrived I brought it upstairs and woke Jisung up.

"Ji, wake up. I got us lunch"