poems

Anxiety

Maybay4

I have alway seemed like a friendly person
You always thought I was
People think I like new friends
They think I'd loose in wars

Instead I hate the thought
Of talking to a stranger
Making new friends makes me nervous
And forcing me to makes me angrier

Whenever I say
"I have social anxiety"
You laugh and reply
"Your funny, since you talk to me all the time,"

But there's a difference
I've known you since forever
And I've only just met them
They mightn't be my happily-ever-after

So don't twist my words
Don't put sentences in my mouth
You never listen to my words
So don't say you understand

I've known since forever
And you've forever
Had your chance
To see how I feel

If you tell me you understand once again
I yell and run away
Because you'll never know
What I feel everyday

Anxiety comes in different forms
Shapes and every size
But, none are the same
You said we are tied but I don't see those ties

You have panic attack when I don't text back
Well I have all the time
No, its not just a fear, its a real attack
So never say yours is worse

I have anxiety
So what
I've managed to hide my pain
So leave my with what I've got

@Trash_panda_Virgil