Unwanted Attention (boyxboy)

Chapter 7

Hisoka POV

I can't believe I fell asleep at Damien's, I could have totally blown my cover back there, I thought. It really freaks me out how much I let my guard down yesterday, god knows I wasn't expecting to enjoy my time at Damien's house, but I did.

Thinking back to how I enjoyed playing around with Damien and his little sister, I couldn't help but think about the past. Just for a small moment I felt the warmth of a family, and it was a long time since I've felt that. My family was long gone after all, but I still yearned for that warmth. I know Roman tried his best to fill that void, but he wasn't exactly a warm and fuzzy type of guy. Hell, he was only 20 years old when he took me in at the age of 13 after my aunt and her husband, decided I was too much to handle. At the time, I could understand why because taking care of a depressed kid while you have five other kids in the house to care for was alot for anyone to handle. Combine that with the fact that they never cared much for me because of my resemblance to my father, the man that "seperated" my mom from her family. Apparently, my grandparents hated him all the way to his death a few years ago, which is also why they never wanted to meet me. That's also was why they didn't feel too bad leaving me at an orphanage. Honestly, if it weren't for Roman coming back for me, once he was age, I would probably be stuck in foster care.

You see Roman was my aunt's stepson from her third and latest marriage. He was the only one who ever tried to understand me back then, but when they gave me up I thought he had forgotten me because for two years he never visited me. My time in the system really did a number on me, and I still can't fully open up to anyone about the physical and emotional abuse that I'd endured there. That's why when Roman came back for me, I was so guarded, and I still am, but deep inside I was grateful that Roman helped me out. It took me awhile to warm up to him again, but after finding out that he had always planned to come back for me as soon as he was stable enough to support me, I embraced him as "family" again. You see Roman had worked his way up the music industry to become a big producer and talent scout. In fact, he's the one who helped me jumpstart my career, even becoming my manager, after hearing me sing. After becoming big, I cracked down on the orphanage I lived at, threatening a lawsuit unless they handed me the reigns to their organization, so that the cycle of abuse could stop. I just didn't want any more kids to end up broken like I was. The fact that I don't trust easy is also why, I was so hurt when my only friend betrayed me, especially after knowing and living through parts of my trauma.

That's enough of the past though, I think as I shake my head. Right now, I have to think of the present and future, and for right now that's my hw. With that I got to work, breezing through my assignments. The only assignment I lingered on was the musical score Damien and I had created. Who knew that perv would be able to not only keep up with me, but also help me to make my arrangement flow better. In fact, our compatibility in music was through the roof, not that I would tell him that though, I don't need him to think he has a shot with me. I mean not only do I still think he's an ass, but I'm just not up for another relationship. The last one nearly killed me after all, so you can  imagine what how reluctant I was to start again. Right now, I just want to learn to love myself, so the only love story I'm gonna be telling is going to be about loving me, myself, and I. Too bad, fate had a different plan in store for me.