A Life With You

Prologue

A life with her, is the life that i have never imagined but still get to love. Every single moment that we spent, together or apart, i loved all of it.

I can't even imagine my life if ever happened that she is not a part of it. Or i just don't want to even think about it. I can't.

I don't even know how can i survive if she's not here with me anymore.

And seeing her here beside me right now makes me want to do more of us.

Habang pwede pa.

Habang kaya pa nya.

I didn't know that it is actually possible to miss someone kahit nariyan lang naman sya sa tabi mo.

"You seem bothered." My thoughts were interrupted when she suddenly spoke.

"Huh?" Is all that i manage to respond

"Huh?" She said, mocking me, and glared at me, "what are you thinking?" She asked, "or who?" She added still glaring but is already tearing up.

I stoop up immediately with the sight of her tears and hugged her sideways. I made her lean on my chest hoping that she would hear my heart beating only for her.

"I am not thinking of anyone else but you, my love." I told her softly as i rubbed her hair.

She's already crying and sobbing silently and it's really hard to see her like this, so i made her look at me by holding her cheeks and wiped her tears with my thumb, then i stared at her.

"Mahal mo pa rin ba 'ko?" She sadly asked and her tears started falling again.

"Oo naman. You know that i will never stop loving you, right?" I said as i keep wiping her tears away. She nodded.

"'Wag mo 'kong iwan, please?" She said, bowing down, sobbing and fidgeting her fingers.

"'Di'ba ako dapat nag sasabi n'yan?" Tanong ko as i stopped wiping her cheeks at naupo ulit sa monoblock na nasa tabi ng kama nya.

"I won't. I am trying not to," she sadly looked at me.

"Pero hanggang kailan?" I bowed down as i felt my eyes are starting to well up, "kasi hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko 'pag nawala ka sa'kin." then, my tears fell.

We are now both crying.

"Hey," she reached for my chin to look at her, "hindi naman ako mawawala e, dito lang ako, lagi." She said slowly and softly then wiped my tears.

I just stoop up, sat beside her on her bed and hugged her tight, as if her my hug would make her stay with me forever.

I want to keep her with me forever but it's just so impossible. It seems so hard for us to stay together because she has to go. She needs to rest.

"Dito lang ako lagi, Mav." She whispered softly and smiled at me.

I love how she managed to look so positive and lively when in fact, i know, she's already tired.

She's just fighting it.

For me.

For us.

Sana kaya kong alisin lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman nya. Sana kasing strong nya rin ako. Sana ako nalang.

Pero naisip ko, kung ako 'yon? Edi hindi rin maganda ang magiging ending namin kung ganito lang din naman ang mangyayari. It will just have a little difference pero eventually, one will still lose the other.

Ang hirap.

How can i even spend my lifetime with her, if her lifetime has already ended?

She's just so lucky she gets to end it with the most important people in her life.

And thought i still can't really consider myself lucky, i am happy that i met her and get to be with her 'til her lifetime ended.

Sometimes, all you have to do is to enjoy the life that is given to you.

Live it the way you wanted, but make sure it is worth spending there.

Make friends.

Laugh.

Love.

Enjoy.

No one knows how long lifetime can be. So we better live life to the fullest.

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