Forever and ever (Kogagoshi ff) HQ (FINISHED)

Chapter 3.

   The next day we had 'special guests' on the practise. Shiratorizawa's 3rd and 2nd years. As we played aganist them, I felt like my arms are going to fall off.

"Where's my towel?" I thought out loud, but Hinata was already throwing one to me.
"Here you go," he said with a smile and handed me a bottle of water, too.
"Thanks," I thanked him and went to sit down on a bench.

Goshiki's POV

   'I need to talk to someone about my feelings.' I had no idea what do they mean and it was driving me crazy. 'Who should I ask? Ushijima-san? No, he's too... too dull in this sphere, at least I think. Tendou-san would only make fun of me and Shirabu doesn't like me at all, so no... I guess it has to be Semi-san.' 

   I aproached him slowly.
"Uhm, Semi-san. Can I talk to you for a second?" I asked, waiting impatietly for his answer.
"Sure, go on," I swallowed hard and looked around me nervously.
"What's up? Just say it," he pushed at me, his voice clearly saying that he's annoyed.
"It's private though. Can I trust you that you won't tell anyone?" I asked. His eyes widened when he saw it's something important, so we sat down on a bench and I started explaining how I felt.

   "... and then I ran away with this weird feeling in my chest," I finished my story. Semi looked at me, thinking about something.
"Okay, I wasn't expecting thins," he frowned a little.
"Have you thought about an option of, I don't know... maybe liking him?" he asked then. I tilted my head to the side.
"What do you mean?"
"Like, like him in a romantic way, maybe?" he lifted his eyebrow as if it was an obvious thing. I blushed and turned away a bit.
"B-but it can't be it. No, just... no," I objected.
"Why not?" Semi looked at me like I was the dumbest person in the whole galaxy.
"W-well we're both g-guys and-"
"And what? It's not a big deal though. Did you know about Ushiwaka-san and Tendou-san?" he asked. I looked up on him blankly, then turned to the mentioned ones. They were standing in a corner of the gym, far away from everyone's sight. I looked better and saw that they were holding hands. Tendou even kissed Ushijima's back of the hand. Ushijima's only reaction were his pink cheeks.
"I-I didn't know they were dating," I said.
"See? Now excuse me. I gotta go somewhare*," he said and left. I sat on the bench alone. Well, at least I thought so.

*A/N: everyone knows that he went after Shirabu UwU no need to hide, no need to be shy semisemi AwA *happy fangirl noises*

Kogane's POV

   I couldn't help it but overheard Goshiki and Semi's conversation. They were talking about some boy (they never really mentioned who it was) Goshiki probably liked, but didn't know about it.

   When the other boy left, Goshiki sat still on his place with a blank expression on his face.
"Hey, you should tell him," I spoke up. The boy sitting on the other side of the bench tensed and slowly turned to me, his cheeks in a dark shade of red.
   "I-I don't know what are you talking about," he stummered. I gave him a look full of disbelief.
"Don't act like that. I accidentally heard what were you and Semi-san talking about and I think that you should tell him. Bottling those feelings inside... it'll hurt a lot in the future, you know," I told him and smiled.
"I-I can't just d-do that!" the other boy almost yelled.
"Why not?"
"W-well, I just found out I'm n-not s-straight and... It didn't really sink in yet! I don't even know if he likes boys too!" he cried out in a whisper-yell.
"Good point, but you won't know unless you try, right?" I said and smiled again. 

The brown-eyed boy just looked down on his hands, but then suddenly spoke up: "Yeah, you're right. I should give it a shot. Thanks Kogane."
He smiled slightly and walked away. 'Probably to that guy.' I thought and my heart ached when I imagined him with someone else. Then my face went pale. 'Do I maybe... like him? Like, like like?' I looked after the boy with dark bangs, but couldn't find him. 'No, that's stupid. I'm straight, right?!' I thought, but Goshiki thought this just a few minutes ago as well after all. I just sighed and forgot about it as I walked back on the court.

Goshiki's POV

   I walked away from Kogane.
"'Tell him.' It's not that easy, you know?! Mainly because the person  we're talking about is YOU!" I muttered under my breath as I entered the boys' changing room and stopped by the washbowl. I splashed my face with cold water. My eyes started watering as I sat down on the floor, my back aganist the wall and my knees pressed aganist my chest. I hid my face and started crying. 

'He'll surely reject me. And what if my family won't accept me?' Those two things were all around my mind as I quietly cried. My sobs were covered by water flooding from an open water tab.

Kogane's POV

   Goshiki didn't show up after the break anymore. 'I wonder where he is.'
"Kunimi, have you seen Goshiki?" I asked a boy standing next to me. He just shook his head and walked away. 'Oh man, how much do I dislike this guy!'

   After the practise was over, I went to look for the dark-haired bowl cut, but I couldn't find him anywhare near the gym and we weren't allowed to go to the dorms, so I went home with a promise, that I'll talk to him tomorrow.

- timeskip -

   I couldn't focuse on any of the lessons and spaced out all the time. I couldn't wait to talk to Goshiki, so I hopped on sooner bus and got to Shiratorizawa.

   I ran into the gym, panting.
"Hey, Kogane!" I heard Hinata yell as he jumped up and down next to me.
"Aren't you a little bit early today?" he asked. I noticed that I was the only one from the camp there yet.
"Uh, Hinata? Is Goshiki here?" I asked with hope, not minding his previous question. Hinata just shook his head and wanted to know why I wanted to know, but I ignored him* and went to change.

* :0 -sad tangerine face

   When I came back, few of the boys arrived too, but the brown-eyed bowl-cut wasn't between them. It's not like he should hurry. He was literally living on the school ground, so it took him only few minutes to get here. I sighed in dissapointment and went to talk to Hinata.

   Goshiki arrived just few seconds before the coaches, so I couldn't even say 'hi' to him. He didn't even look at me for whole practise. How do I know? You may ask. Well, I kinda stared at him, I guess. He was also very distant today. Everytime I wanted to aproach him and talk to him, he would suddenly walk away or change the direction of his path. 'Strange...' I thought as I wiped sweat in the towel.

   "Something's going on with Goshiki," I said as we once again stayed longer for an extra practise.
"Yeah, you're right," Kindaichi agreed as I tossed the ball to him.
"But till it's not in his own will to tell us, we shouldn't push on him," he said after he slammed the ball to the ground.
"Uh-um," I mumbled as I kept on tossing the ball.

Goshiki's POV 

   I was standing near the gym door, so i could clearly hear what they were talking about. 'So he's worried about me...' my heart jumped a little at this thought. 'Maybe I really do have a chance...''NO YOU DON'T.' my other half told me immediately. I sighed and went back to my room

   'How can a person start liking someone in such a short time? Is that even possible?' I thought as I took a quick shower. I fell asleep with thoughts full of one certain setter.

Oi Oi Oi!

This story is nearing its end. Let's be honest, this wasn't planned to be a long story since the start :). I think it'll have like 2, maybe 3 more chapters? (so we're basically in it's middle but nvm).

Anyway, I started drawing a Kogagoshi comic (bc I can, right?). I have a nice plot, kinda weird characters... but it looks good now. I think I'll be posting it on my art acc (it's in my bio) and i'll also try to be more active with that too, since many people know that I can't really keep my promises that are linked with time... BuT i'Ll TrY!

Let me know if there are any mistakes, bc Sonka also can't write properly :)) -help

Have a nice day :3

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