Bad Boy - A Jack Gilinsky Fanfiction

Untitled Part 9

Warning this chapter could be triggering. Just remember that you are all loved and wanted and needed in somebodies life. If you ever feel sad or depressed please talk to someone because the world doesn't deserve to lose a beautiful angel like you.

I wake up at  2:00am with about 10 texts from the same unknown number.

"Bitch,"

"Skank."

"Whore."

"Just kill yourself already,"

My eyes gleamed with tears. I run in to the bathroom and lock myself inside. I looked at myself in the mirror. I tried to ignore the texts but the words kept replaying in my mind and slowly I was braking. I couldn't take it any more. Tears slowly ran down my face. I was in so much pain. Why, why me? What did I ever do to deserve this. I looked at myself again. Behind the smile was a completely different personality.  Behind that smile was a girl who was breaking down. A girl who was weak. Flashbacks played in my mind. The little 6 year old girl running around in the backyard. She was completley gone and had been replaced by someone who was slowly breaking inside. I'm such a dissapointment. My parents don't love me, Jack only feels bad for me and Chloe hates my guts. I leaned into the closet and grabbed the razor. I sliced deep, deeper and deeper. I chucked the razor on the floor and walked into the room. Jack was still sleeping.

"I can't do it anymore," I wrote on a small piece of paper and walked out the back door.

The street was dark and I was feeling woozy from the amount of blood I'd lost.

I don't want to live. I just want this to be over with. 

Everybody hates me,

All I ever will be is a goody two shoes.

All I'll ever be is a nobody.

No one will care if I die.

Nobody cares now so why should they care when I'm gone.

My mind is like a dictionary of sadness and heartache.

All my heart aches for is to belong, to fit in, to be loved and to feel normal.

My life is a failure.

I stumble onto the road unable to control my movements I see bright lights headed towards me but I can't move. I hear a honk and then I see darkness.

Jack's POV:

It's 2:30 am and I can't feel her next to me. I look at her phone to check the time and see a whole lot of nasty messages sent in by an unknown number. I walk to the bathroom and see the razor thrown onto the ground surounded by a pool of blood. I then walk to the door slipping on my shoes and see a not.

"I can't do it anymore," It said

The paper had a couple of blood stains and tear marks on it. I ran down the road and saw a man out of his car and an ambulance by him. I sprint over.

"What happened?!" I say

"Sir that's classified information," One of the paramedics say.

I look into the ambulance and see Darcy's lifeless body laying there.

"That's my fucking girlfriend!" I scream 

"Okay sir calm down, your girlfriend seems to have a lot of blood loss from deep cuts on her arms, she obviously went outside and was drousy from the amount of blood loss, she wandered on to the road and got hit by a car," The paramedic said

I started to cry. I walk over to Darcy. 

"Please Darcy, I love you please wake up," I say crying

I jump in the back of the ambulance and we drive to the hospital.

I call Darcy's mum.

"Jack wha-," I cut her off

"Darcy got hit by a car come to St James hospital now!" I say hanging up.

They arrive to the hospital within 5 minutes.

A doctor walks out and towards us.

"Family and friends of Darcy Johnson?" he says walking over to us.

"Yes," Julia Darcy's mum replies

"It- it's not looking to good," The doctor says.