I thought when you found that so-called "the one" for you, you'll believe that everything is perfect. But why so? I feel the opposite. Yes, I feel like everything is favorable. He gives me all the attention I need. He made me think that I'm the only girl he fell in love with. But what happened? Why is this happening now?
"He's just a friend, Aaron! And nothing's wrong with that!" I exclaimed. We are on our way home. He insisted on sending me home. It's been three weeks since he last urged on sending me home.
"There is!"
"And what, huh?" I stopped walking and faced him. "He said he just needs a friend to talk to!" I added.
"Even so! I know men, Emine! I know that wasn't just his intention!"
I stayed silent. I can no longer answer. And it's better not to answer him because our fight will get worse. I wouldn't say I like this. I don't want us to fight, so I am supposed to keep hush.
"Why can't you answer?" I just crouched. "Ha! Gulizar Emine!"
I knew he was furious because he had already called my real name.
"Sorry," the only thing that came out of my mouth.
"Sorry your face bitch!" I slapped him. Hard. Then I walked away from him. My tears started to fall. I hastened my step. He chased me. My tears are still trickling.
"Emine!" He reached my wrist. "I'm sorry, " he's about to caress me, but I avoided it. "No. Don't touch me. and.. Don't you ever talk to me." I ran away from him.
He changed.
It's been a week. I've only been ignoring him for a week. He keeps on texting me and calling me. But I have no intention to talk to him. I've been isolating myself. I was listening to sad songs and wallowing in self-pity and pain.
Every day without him feels like you are suddenly dropped off at a location you had never heard of before. I am stuck in these thousands of questions eat up my mind to find solace in answers which were never given to me.
"Zarem, anak! Bumaba ka na. Kakain na tayo." Dy called out for dinner.
I wiped away my tears. I won't let it consume me. I have to let it go. I must accept the truth and move on.
