Invisable Scars- My life...

Im done. Im free!

Ive waited patiently, I think I deserve to be let go,

You made me feel dumb but I know I have a lot more to show.

Ive always wanted a chance to prove I can do it,

Your done standing over me, It's about time that you listen, it's about time that you sit.

You'll always think i'm stupid, but it's not like that at all.

When I get shot in the heart, it's obvious i'll fall.

Ive had enough of your hate, I'm done with this trial.

I want to stand high, I want to make people smile.

I'll go and live my life, nothing like before.

There's a lot more to see yet, because pain is all I ever saw.

A voice told me that i'm not wanted anymore,

but i'll never believe it, no one can pin me to the floor.

I'm labelled 'Abused' but i'll rip it right off!

You don't scare me anymore, all you did was make my past rough.

I'll keep on going, there's nothing more you can do,

I'll spread my wings and take off before the eyes of you.

I'm a broken winged bird that's about to set free,

But despite the bruises, i'll fly, just watch me.

Look at me now dad! Look how much your daughter has grown!

Ive replaced you with someone else who loves me and my dark memories with you I have thrown.

Remember I told you " One day, You'll see. "

Well look at me now dad!

Ive finally escaped your prison!

I'm done!

Damn...

I'm finally free...

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* THE END (: *

The day I wrote this poem was was a year ago, the day I accepted the fact that I found love in Jay ( My boyfriend). He showed me that I can love myself and another human can love me. He would always call me a soldier no matter how weak I looked. He would always be my shield. If it wasn't for him, I would never be who I am today;

Happy. Loved. Caring. Kind. Compassionate... Smiling?

He was definitely my guardian angel, the only person on earth that could help me by just giving me a smile. He regained my trust in people and showed me what it meant to feel happy and loved.

On that day, I moved out of my dads house with the support of Jay. I got a place of my own and Jay lived with me to protect me just in case. My dad apologised and finally agreed he would leave my life forever.

That wasn't the end. That was the beginning of chapter two in mine and Jay's lives. <3

There were a lot more poems in my book but too many to write on here so I cut it really short and skipped to this one. But I'll be writing another short poem book of some of the poems I wrote from the day I met Jay and the journey of how I felt towards him;

Anger. Interrogation. Pain. Surrender. Hope. Lust... And finally love.

Thank you for reading these poems, I really do hope that if you are having or have had a past like mine, you are smiling today or will certainly smile one day.

Keep fighting soldier...

~  Love, Skylar xx