Stray Kids One Shots || bxb (Requests Closed)

Empty || Chanho

Words: 870
Ship: Chanho (Chan x minho)
Relationship: Boyfriends
Warnings: Cussing, angst, mentions of self harm, suicidal thoughts
Suggested song: Empty- Juice wrld

Minho focus

Minho stood over the stove in his dorm. A white shirt and black shorts hanging loosely from hi hunger panged frame. He watched the water on the stove boil, the pops of steam satisfying a small part of him that he couldn't quite place. He felt quite numb recently so it was a change...He enjoyed cooking.

after he'd spaced out the remembered he needed to get the other ingredients out. The world was almost in slow motion, 2:30 in the morning is a weird time in a sleep deprived boys life.He grabbed the chicken, seasoning and a cutting knife. 

"you could kill yourself with that" a whisper in the back of Minho's mind spewd. He cringed. and continued cutting the chicken. He was almost watching from another angle, outside himself.

He realized how pale and thin he'd gotten, not thin like skinny, thin like starving. Ugly. He thought. He sighed laying down the knife. His long blonde hair covering his face.

He was never known for his dance or rap skills...or at least he thought. He was positive he was just good looks and now he wasn't even pretty.

"Chan is gonna leave me, Stay are gonna leave... I'm fucking pathetic."He cried, basically throwing the food he'd began to make off the counter, the bang of the cutting board echoed through the room. Had he reached his breaking point? Minho had never delt with serious depression before, was this the explode of stresses? 

He felt the strong urge to see blood, but he knew that that was wrong. 

"No, no no no no." He whispered to himself, sliding down the wall.He saw the blade of the knife hanging over the edge of the counter. "g-go get Chan, go get him" Minho cried, he didn't know how much longer he could take the emptiness inside of him. He'd been hiding it for months. He always had the same urge to see red. Red like his Channies hair, red like their comeback colors, red like stays nachimbong, but it wasn't enough.

Valentines day. Minho thought, releasing a small giggle. His heart felt a blooming warmth, but also a cold dark emptiness.  He croaked out a sob.

" I hate this." He sobbed.

He heard foot steps running down stairs. He froze and his heart rate picked up.

"Minho?" Chans voice echoed in the silent room. Minho swore his breaths sounded like a lion roar.

"Chan Hyung." Minho said quietly, slowly turning into a bawling mess.

Chan ran over to the boy and checked is body for blood. he gladly found none.

"I-i heard a bang, a-are you alright? Baby whats wrong?" Chan hushed the crying boy. 

Minho's chocolate eyes glistened as he cooked into Chan's eyes. he sniffled. words couldn't express the pain he was feeling. 

"You don't have to say anything." Chan sighed. He lifted the boy, carrying him up stairs. Minho's legs wrapped around his waist.

"I wanna go to sleep." Minho said in tiny font. His voice broke and shook.

Chan smiled just a bit, he didn't want to seem happy to hear a voice so sad. "We can put you to bed." He said, trying to content his only.

"..k chan hyung." He cried, nestling his head into chan's neck.

Chan reached their shared room. He lays Minho down and takes a nice long, loving look at his boy. Chan gently wiped minho's tears.

" you don't have to tell me now, but you need to eventually, so we can help you. alright?" Chan lovingly placed a kiss on his eyebrow.

"Clothes." Minho said, trying to remove his uncomfortable shirt. Chan nodded.

"okokokokok."He hustled, unbuttoning the shirt and sliding it off. "D'you want a hoodie or a sweater?"

"yes."

"ok"

Chan grabbed a dark hoodie with roses on the sleeves. Minho threw it on it hung over his gym shorts and calmed him. It smelled of versace eros, chans cologne.

"Channie, I love you, Please dont leave me." He whined.

Chan paled, but then turned a deep pink.

"If I had it my way, i'd never have to be anywhere else, see anyone more or be with anyone new. I should be begging you not to leave. You are my day and my night. I'd never leave." Chan smiled,he dove into a hug with Minho. They melted together.

"You make me whole." Minho sighed into chans neck. "when you aren't around i feel so god damn empty."

"Minho, thank you for telling me this. I wont ever lave your sight, or your arms, until you know i wont go."

"You dont need to feel empty."

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Hey space cadets. Long time no see :). I miss you guys gals and pals. 

I have one more chapter planned for tomorrow, it is gonna be very very sad, no happy ending and i might do another chapter thats very poly and very cute :DDD.

Happy valentines day, to all you sad bitches. Gay lords. MCYT stans. Chan lovers. the Jult. People who want a corpse and felix collabs. people who want to kiss jeognins nose. Satan ass seungmin stans. Changbin stans who are taller than him. Hyunjin stans who are lit ra lly models. and Minho stans that are future crazy cat people.